Chapter 12:


Dreams of Reality

26th September 2456

       I've got a feeling that I might unintentionally wrap this up. It's been a lot of days since I even opened this. Probably the reason I suddenly want to write my thoughts down is because of what happened today. I don't know if I mentioned it, but we have a new classmate for like three days now.

       I think she is okay. Nothing made me hate her in this small amount of time. But today something that I wasn't expecting by any means happened. When we were near the lockers changing shoes, she asked me if I would show her around the town.

       I was a little surprised because we haven't spoke since I asked her about that thing. I also think that there are much better people for the job, for example, people she is talking to on daily basis now. But why me? We talked only once. It feels surreal, like a dream. This got me thinking if it came back, those weird dreams.

       She said that I should think about it, and she will give me more details later if I decide to go. I don't know if it's a good idea to ask her about it if I am not sure she asked me. That must sound weird. This whole feeling, the possibility that it might not happened, and that it's all in my head is weird.

       I think the best for me is to ignore it and not make any moves because it would be very embarrassing to go to her and start talking about it, just to be told that she never said anything like it to me. Also what kinda bothers me is if it was a dream, why would I have dreamed of her asking me to go out?

       It makes me think that I would want that, but the more I think about it the more I feel like I would not wish for such a thing. Why should I? We haven't talked since I asked her about the whole 'already knowing each other thing' and I am not really interested in her.

       She seems like a decent person, I am not gonna lie, but it's just weird. To be honest, I am having a hard time writing about all of this. I don't know what I should do, or what should I think about it.