Confession From The Person I Don’t Recognize

“Please read this letter…! I’m s-sorry!!!” she stuttered nervously before bowing down further than 90 degrees and running off in the opposite direction.

I looked down at the cute heart-motifed envelope she handed me between my fingers.

Did I just get a confession letter?!

As I walked back home, my mind drifted away high into the pink and blue evening sky, floating ever so slightly like the grey clouds looming over the neighborhood houses.

What the hell should I do now?

The second I got home, my legs quickly drove my body to the bathroom. I took a long and warm bath. Maybe I took longer than usual in the bathroom because I had PE class today and I stink, but ultimately I was just trying to further avoid having to take a peek that girl's deepest feelings.

Come to think of it, I don't even know who she is...

If my memory serves me correctly, she’s the junior thats in the literature club, the club I so dearly love. I don’t talk to her much, no - I never had a proper conversation with her.

Why someone who I don't even recognize could harbor such intense feelings for me, I don't know.

The towel soaked with tepid water that lays on my head cooled down my racing thoughts. My anxiety was waiting for me in the comforts of my bedroom. I glanced over to my bag that carries the love letter from my secret admirer.

My courage sinks back in. Thoughts of backing off from the letter started growing stronger, but I do my best to shake them off. After all, someone had just built the bravery to write such an embarrassing thing and then deliver it in person.

To not read it would be some form of insult to her.

I rummage through my bag to see the envelope still in perfect shape. I delicately unfold it and pull the contents out. It was a piece of paper - also with a cute motif - stating the following.

♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡

     Dear Senpai,

     If you’re reading this, that means I’ve successfully built up the courage to confess my feelings! Senpai, I like you so, so much! And not as a regular upperclassman, but as a man…!!!

     You may not remember this, but it really did happen! In the literature club, I was reading as usual, when suddenly a couple of older delinquents threaten us to leave our spot before they did things that we'd regret! We were so scared, so we decided to move. ; __ ;

     Like the most awful creeps in the world, they started cornering me while putting on a really scary face!!! I was so freaked out, I might’ve cried a little!! >_<;;;

     And then all of the sudden, like a knight in shining armor, as if I was the damsel in distress, you came to my rescue!! You stood between us, protecting me from those scary guys! You slammed your fist on the table and glared back at them with your beautiful, sharp eyes.

     They got scared and immediately ran away from the library, threatened by your incredible, menacing presence. It’s embarrassing to admit but… at that moment, my heart started fluttering!! My face started steaming!!! >///<

     Ever since then, I’ve been watching you from afar in the library. Whenever you’re around, I would direct my position toward you while hiding behind a book I pretended to read!!!

     Just watching was enough for me, truly that’s all I wanted. Being able to breathe the same air as you… ah~ it’s enough. But I wanted to tell you my feelings still...!! 0////0

     Love and best regards, 
     Minahase Airi ♡

    Ps. You don't have to reply back, okay?! I'm too shy to hear back from you >////<

♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡

A drop of cold sweat dribbles down my chin.

I lean backward to my chair, my eyes hopping from one thing to another.

"That’s not how I remembered it happened…" I audibly whispered to myself.

I fold the letter to the size of my thumbs nail and shove it to the deepest, darkest corner of my drawer - the dark corner where spider webs formed and dust compiled. I turned off the lights and got comfortable under my blanket.

I think that's enough love for today.