The weekend

That weekend, I didn't go to Jianghai University to look for a job to stay in school. Qinger said that I was busy and didn't have time.

This is the first time in a long time that we haven't been together on weekends. I used to go shopping with Qing'er or play play badminton every weekend.

I don't know what will change me after this abrupt night after drinking? I don't know what has changed in my heart? I lay in the dormitory for 2 days, but I didn't sleep well.

I suddenly felt that I couldn't help falling in love with Liu Yue, a charming young woman 12 years older than me, a charming young woman who took me into the source of life, and a mature young woman who fascinated me in the gentle countryside.

After a long time of love with Qing'er, I suddenly felt pale after a night of love with Liu Yue, feeling as if I had drunk boiled water for a long time.

I have never experienced this kind of sex and love. This sudden burst of sex. I don't know if the feeling that comes with it is love, but I have a strong feeling in my heart, as if I had never felt it before!

I think this is love, although it comes so suddenly and absurd!

However, I think I am ridiculous. Liu Yue is a married woman. I don't know what her husband is, and whether she has children. It is absurd to fall in love with a young woman suddenly.

"I lie in bed, happy and worried, excited and miserable. I don't know why I am like this. I feel like a person with strong self-control, strong will and strong faith. However, why did I fall apart in front of this woman, and ashes fly and smoke disappear.".

I know that all this is impossible and unrealistic, but I can't convince myself. The shadow of Liu Yue lingered in my mind for two days.

If this is love, then what is between me and Qinger?

I am very contradictory, I am very painful, I think I am going crazy!

When I went to work on Monday, I didn't dare to look at Liu Yue's eyes. It seemed that I had done something outrageous and unseemly, but I was eager to be with her.

After all, I have only been working at the company for 4 days, and I don't know my leader. Liu Yue's understanding of me is limited to limited archives and contact during these 4 days.

Liu Yue's eyes at me are still calm and indifferent, so quiet and comfortable, as if nothing had happened between us.

After the regular meeting of departments and offices and arranging the work for a week, Liu Yue said to me in front of her colleagues, "Jiang Feng, today you went with me to NJ County on business, and I asked for a car. Later, the driver of the office waited for us downstairs."

My heart was filled with excitement. It was my greatest desire to work with Liu Yue. As long as I could be with her, I could go anywhere!

After 30 minutes, Liu Yue and I sat on the bus to NJ County.

I sat in the passenger seat and Liu Yue sat in the back row.

I leaned against the back seat and saw Liu Yue in the rearview mirror of the car. I saw Liu Yue's white and beautiful face. My heart was full of ups and downs!

I suddenly felt that I was very dirty and insignificant in front of Liu Yue.

I sat in the front row, thinking wildly.

"Director Liu, how many days are we going to Nanjiang to interview?" driver Xiao Wang asked Liu Yue.

"Three days," Liu Yue replied concisely, and then asked me, "Jiangfeng, your home is Nanjiang, isn't it?"

"Yes," I replied hurriedly. Liu Yue could remember where my home was so clearly: "My home is in the countryside of Nanjiang, in the valley."

"Hmm..." Liu Yue agreed, and then said nothing.

Xiao Wang turned on the music in the car, and Wang Jie's sad voice filled the car: "This is just a game and a dream..."

During the three days of my interview in Nanjiang, I learned a lot of working skills with Liu Yue, from selecting topics to formulating an interview outline, from how to cut into questions to guiding interviewees to answer questions.

I learned very quickly. The next day, I could interview an entrepreneur independently. Liu Yue sat beside me and listened without interrupting. After the interview, Liu Yue said to me that you have a strong understanding and are quick to accept new things. You are born to be a reporter.

I am very happy because this is Liu Yue praising me. My eyes are shining as I look at Liu Yue. I still remember that night from time to time, but Liu Yue doesn't look into my eyes.

I really want to find a chance to stay alone with Liu Yue, but I hate it. The driver, Xiao Wang, always comes to us and stays in the same room with me at night.

I think there is something on Liu Yue that fascinates me, which Qinger doesn't have. I don't know exactly what it is.

During the three days of business trip with Liu Yue, my heart was full of inexplicable happiness, as well as the bewilderment and excitement in my heart, and sometimes I felt a little nervous.

The reason for my anxiety is that I often think of Qing'er in my heart. While I have a girlfriend, I am still attached to a young woman who is 12 years older than myself. This somewhat makes me feel ashamed and uneasy. I have tried to make myself forget that night. I have tried several times, and not only in vain, but also more clearly and more unable to extricate myself from Liu Yue.

I don't know why I fell in love with this woman hopelessly. I don't know whether this woman likes me or not. I take every opportunity to observe Liu Yue's words and behavior towards me and try to get some signal, but I can't see anything. From Liu Yue, I get the signal that I am her subordinate and apprentice.

I will not give up. I will not despair in despair. I am persistent and looking forward to it.

The interview is over. In the evening, the Publicity Department of NJ County Party Committee will practice for us, and tomorrow we will report to the community.

The farewell party was very lively. Everyone drank a lot of wine, including me and Liu Yue.

I looked at Liu Yue from time to time. Liu Yue pretended to be invisible and talked and laughed with others.

Out of courtesy, I toasted the people in the publicity department of NJ County Party Committee one by one.

"Jiang reporter is very young and promising, and has a bright future!" said Han, deputy minister of the county party committee propaganda department, warmly, patting me on the shoulder.

"Jiang Feng is the new force of our News Department. It has only been a few days. It has made rapid progress and has an unlimited future..." Liu Yue turned around, looked at everyone and then at me.

I am very moved and happy that Liu Yue praised me so much. Minister Han said that 10000 words are not as good as Liu Yue.

I drank a little too much, smiled stupidly, and said a witty remark at the same time: "Young people have... no future..."

Everyone was amused and burst into laughter. Liu Yue, too, smiled beautifully and sumptuously. His face was red and his eyes glanced at me.

My heart beat a little, and the effect of alcohol began to play, and my body became hot and dry.

After dinner, I went back to my room, where Xiao Wang was watching TV. I was drunk and sorting out interview materials and packing. Just then, the phone in the room rang. As soon as I answered it, it was Liu Yue, who lived next to me.

"Jiang Feng, come to my room." Liu Yue's voice on the phone was drunk.

My heart beat violently, and I hurriedly agreed to put on the phone, told Xiao Wang that I would go out to meet a friend, and hurried to Liu Yue's room next door.

Liu Yue was sitting on the sofa watching TV. When she saw me coming in, she smiled at me. It was beautiful.

My heart was hot. I closed the door with my back hand, and then came in and sat opposite her. I was confused and excited, but also a little cramped.

Liu Yue stood up and poured me a glass of water, put tea on it, and gave it to me: "You drank a lot in the evening. Drink some water to relieve the alcohol."

I took it, swallowed nervously, and then looked at Liu Yue, feeling familiar and strange.

"Let's talk for a while." Liu Yue smiled at me kindly again, very friendly, with a red face and a bright eyes.

"OK." I nodded silently.

"Do you think I'm old?"

"No, you are not old, you are young, and you are the most beautiful woman in my eyes..." I blurted out, my heart pounding..

Liu Yue was silent for a while and said softly: "I am 12 years older than you. We are two generations..."

"However, there is no age limit for love!" I blurted out again, which shocked myself.

"I'm ridiculous. Just because of a drunken one night stand, I have to talk about love with a young woman 12 years older than me, and I don't know anything about her personal situation.".

However, at that time, there was nothing else in my mind, only an incredible and uncontrollable love rushed up, and then expressed it through my oral expression.

Liu Yue was obviously also startled and looked at me with strange eyes: "Jiang Feng, you have drunk too much..."

"I didn't drink much, I said it from my heart." I mustered up courage and continued stubbornly. At this moment, in my eyes, Liu Yue is not my director Liu, but my sister Yue'er. The intense feelings of that night began to surge in my heart again.

"I said, you have drunk too much..." Liu Yue's face was a little flustered, her eyes were a little confused, her hands were shaking and she held up a glass of water to drink, and her language was a little incoherent: "Sorry, I misled you... I hurt you... I didn't know you were the first time... sorry... please don't think too much..."

Liu Yue became painful as she said, and her eyes were full of heartache and guilt. She covered her face with her hands and buried her head.

Seeing Liu Yue's pain, my heart suddenly felt very sad. A burst of sadness came out and my nose was a little sour. I suddenly felt that this woman was so fragile, so weak, and so needed the care of men.

"I didn't think much... I just thought a little... I love you!" I said intermittently, choking, tears streaming out.

Liu Yue was surprised. She looked up and gave me a tissue and said, "Why are you crying? You are a man, and men can't cry..."

I was ashamed of what Liu Yue said, and I don't know why the tears of his mother flowed out so unproductively. I never shed a tear when I broke a bone playing football before. At that moment, I felt humiliated.

"You really drink too much today, go back to rest, stop thinking nonsense, work hard, study hard, and be a qualified party newspaper reporter, huh..." Liu Yue looked calm and spoke big words, but the tone was very gentle to me, as if a big sister was comforting her younger brother.

I hurriedly dried my tears, looked at Liu Yue's beautiful face, and a pair of white jade hands, and remembered that it was the jade hands that led me to find the source of life that night when I was confused and ignorant.

I felt an impulse and suddenly reached out and held Liu Yue's hand.