Importance

At that time, I didn't know the importance of this party member to me. Later, I realized the meaning of Liu Yue's words. It turns out that joining the Party is the prerequisite for promotion, especially in the Party newspaper unit.

I remember hearing that the easiest way to join the Party is to become a soldier, followed by college. It is difficult to join the Party in the unit. How many people fight for a party ticket.

Later on, I have been very lucky to be a member of the Communist Party of China in the university because of the position of military and sports minister.

"Hmm... I see." I replied.

"You can also go to his office to sit down, report your thoughts and listen to his instructions when you have nothing to do, which is a bureaucratic old fogey," said Liu Yue.

"Hmm, I see." I still said that sentence, my heart empty.

"Remember, at any time, we must make him think that you are my cousin, and we are cousins. We should not show flaws." Liu Yue suddenly said very seriously.

I nodded and asked Liu Yue: "He is very good to you. He means that to you, doesn't he?"

"Yes, he meant that. He had meant that to me for a long time." Liu Yue replied happily: "His wife has been sick and died for two years, and he has not looked for it, just waiting for me."

"Then you promised him?" I asked foolishly.

"Silly boy, can't you see tonight?"

"Why don't you promise him?"

"I respect him and regard him as my eldest brother, but I don't feel that way about him, although he has always been good to me, but you are different..."

"What is that feeling?" I asked foolishly.

"Fool, think for yourself," Liu Yue patted me on the head: "It's meaningless to say it, but it can only be understood... However, it's not clear..."

I snickered and asked, "Why didn't you tell him clearly, reject him and let him give up waiting and hope?"

Liu Yue looked at me and remained silent for a while, then said, "You're still young, you don't know, you don't understand, love and marriage are not simply a matter of doing or not doing, loving or not loving, and the romantic love in the student era is different from the real love in life..."

"I nodded vaguely and said, 'Sister Yue'er, I really like you, I don't like you being good with others...'"

I learned well and stopped saying love, because Liu Yue said love was too heavy, let me be careful to say this word.

"Hmm... I know, I understand your idea..." Liu Yue patted me on the shoulder: "Get up, I'll give you something."

I sat up, Liu Yue put half the smoke in my mouth, then got out of bed and went to the living room. After a while, he came in, took a delicate square paper box, opened it, and took out a BB machine for me: "Motorola, Hanxian, 126, for you, I will call you if I can't find you later..."

I was shocked. At that time, the Big Brother was a legend. BB machines were just beginning to become popular, most of them were digital. Generally, only those leaders and rich people wore Han Xian's in their waists, and the price was not cheap, close to 3000 yuan. For me, who has just joined the job and worked more than 300 yuan a month, this is something I can't even think of, although I envy the "squeak" in other people's waist.

"Where did you get it? It's very expensive. I don't want it. Take it with you." I said.

"I went to the post and telecommunications office to interview and wrote an exclusive interview with the director. I was bribed," Liu Yue said to me with a smile: "This is for you. I'll try to get another one later. You don't wear it on your waist, and when you go out, you squeak. What a look, hehe..."

I am very happy and like this stuff. Let them have a look at it at the party. It also shows that we are doing well. At least we can satisfy our vanity.

Liu Yue was very happy to see me fiddle with this. She patted me on the shoulder: "Baby, you will be a reporter for a long time. People will give you a lot of things. There are all kinds of gifts and souvenirs. Hee hee... There is no other advantage to be a reporter, but there are many gifts and wine stores..."

When I was happy, I put away the BB machine and suddenly felt the sorrow of parting. I looked at Liu Yue and said, "Yue'er, when you leave, I will miss you very much, very much... very much..."

Liu Yue whispered softly, "Baby, sister's baby, sister can't part with you..."

I turned over and put the willow moon flat

Liu Yue tightly grasped my hair and trembled, saying, "Kiss baby, I love you so much, I only have you in my heart..."

The storm broke out again.

That night, Liu Yue and I didn't sleep. In addition to chatting, we just did that thing, and then we continued to chat. We felt that there was endless love talk and endless cotton entanglement

There was a moment when I cried, tears streaming down my face, and I couldn't bear Liu Yue to leave me.

Liu Yue also cried, but soon smiled again, patted my face and said, "Men don't cry, men don't cry, I will often meet you..."

So I dried my tears and hugged Liu Yue tightly for fear that she would disappear soon.

Liu Yue let me hold her and whispered in my ear, "Honey, you are not allowed to find other women..."

"Hmm..." I nodded and agreed, feeling very empty, very flustered and frightened.

"Be careful not to get close to Mei Ling, stay away from her, stay away from her, and don't offend her..."

"Hmm..." Although I don't know what the reason is, as long as Liu Yue doesn't like people, they must not be good people. I will stay away from them.

"Write when you miss me, and I will send the address to your BB machine when I arrive."

"Hmm..." I was very flustered.

"Visit me in the provincial capital when it is convenient, I will take you out to play and buy clothes for you..." Liu Yue continued, her voice getting smaller and smaller.

I suddenly felt that my neck was warm and something was flowing down. When I touched Liu Yue's face, Liu Yue cried.

My tears came down silently again.

I have known Liu Yue for one month, and I have shed tears three times. In the past 10 years, I have not shed a tear. When I was with Qinger, I was always a mountain, a strong backer, and I always comforted Qinger. However, when I am with Liu Yue, I always feel naive and powerless. The tide of emotion is always so surging, always so easy to touch the nerves of sadness and pain in my heart, and tears are always so easy to flow out.

The next morning, after getting up, Liu Yue left me the key to her room.

Liu Yue wants to go to the office first to say goodbye to her leading colleagues. She wants me to be a little late today and not send her off.

I know she is afraid that I will lose control in that situation, and I really don't know whether I can control myself.

We kissed goodbye deeply, deeply... for a long time

Then Liu Yue separated from me, bit her lips tightly, and smiled hard: "Honey, go! Wish me a good journey!"

"Yue, have a good journey." I looked at Liu Yue crazily.

Then, Liu Yue turned around and went downstairs, carrying a simple suitcase.

Liu Yue left, with my endless thoughts, and took away my lonely heart.

I ran to the balcony and watched Liu Yue's figure disappear at the corner of the corridor. My heart was filled with sadness. My heart is full of melancholy. From knowing Liu Yue to now, I have never known anything about her past. She doesn't say, I don't ask.

I don't know what will happen in the future.

After Liu Yue left, Liu Fei, the former deputy director of the Department of Public Information, took over the work of Liu Yue.

Because Liu Yue is in the nature of secondment, the relationship of personnel files is still in the newspaper office, and the salary is still paid by the newspaper office, that is to say, it is still possible to return, so the party committee of the newspaper office did not appoint a new director, but the deputy director presided over. Liu Yue's office has not been moved, but still remains. Liu Fei still works with us in the big office.

This comforts me a little. Maybe Liu Yue can return to the newspaper office again.

In my heart, I secretly hope that Liu Yue's dream will be shattered and that she will not stay as the provincial capital. She will come back as soon as her secondment expires.

I can't help feeling ashamed of my selfishness. Compared with Brother Yang, I think my idea is very mean. Lao Yang has waited for Liu Yue for two years without any return. Liu Yue has to go to the provincial capital to make progress. He can also reach out and promise to help Liu Yue find a way to handle the relationship. This is how broad and selfless the mind and tolerance is. I only think of myself. For my so-called love, I would rather use Liu Yue's ideal as the price.

I feel very small. I feel that my feelings for Liu Yue are not sincere enough, deep enough, and unselfish enough. I feel as if I don't know what true love is and can't understand the true meaning of love.

I'm lost, I'm lost, I'm lonely

I felt a deep guilt and strong yearning for Liu Yue.

In the first minute after Liu Yue left, I began to miss Liu Yue. In the daytime, except for interviews and writing, my mind is full of Liu Yue. In the evening, I will stay in Liu Yue's house for several hours and sit in the living room quietly listening to Deng Lijun's "Just Like Your Tender", which is the melody of our first dance. I sat on the sofa, listened quietly, smoked the 35 cigarettes left by Liu Yue, and recalled our scenes in the curl of smoke

I dare not go to the bedroom or sleep in that bed. It will arouse my strong yearning. I can't stand it. I dare not enjoy it.

I just sat quietly in the living room, listening to music, smoking cigarettes and remembering the past

Memories, memories... jump out of my heart and hug you

At 11:00 p.m., I quietly closed the doors and windows, closed the lights, and quietly left. I went back to my humble dormitory. On the bed where I had fought with Liu Yue for an afternoon, I gradually fell asleep in the sweet and painful memory of Liu Yue.

Sex or love first? Is there love or desire first? Can love and sexual abundance be separated? When I lay alone on the bed, I began to think about these problems. Of course, according to my experience at that time and life experience, the final result of my thinking can only be two words: childish.

After Liu Yue left, I always carried the BB machine in my pocket. I didn't want to let others know that I had a BB machine in the unit. In order to be unobtrusive, I set the BB machine to vibrate and waited for Liu Yue to call me at any time.

On the morning of the second day after Liu Yue left, I was outside for an interview when my pants pocket near my thigh suddenly felt numb and the BB machine was shaking crazily.

I excitedly hurried to the place where there was no one. I couldn't wait to take out the BB machine and read the information. It was Liu Yue who was calling me. My Moon finally came to the information.

"My dear, I just checked in today, and everything is going well. Don't read it. My mailing address is: Box 102, No. 35 Jiefang Road, Yinyin City. Please write to me if it is convenient. I miss your Yue'er."

"I jumped up in ecstasy and excitement, put the BB machine to my mouth and gave it a hard kiss, as if I were kissing Liu Yue's lips.".