Under the Warm Table Lamp

At the end of the interview, in the evening, in the study of Liu Yue's home, under the warm desk lamp, I made a cup of tea, lit a cigarette, touched my pen, and unfolded the letter. Looking at the dignified and beautiful Liu Yue in the picture frame on the desk, I wrote to Liu Yue with endless sweetness and concern, and with the love and missing of cotton.

"Sister Yue'er, I am sitting at the desk in your study at the moment, sitting on the chair you have sat in countless times, looking at your beautiful face, thinking of your boundless tenderness, and writing to you. Today I finally received the message, so happy... You have gone for 2 days, 2 days, for me, it seems to be a long 2 years, I spend every moment and every second in thinking of you, thinking of your face, thinking of your smile, thinking of your every move One move, thinking of every inch of your tenderness, thinking of every kiss of you... I miss you, my Acacia is like the ivy wrapped around the tree, flying in the summer rain, and you are the evergreen tree in my heart. Looking back on the short time we spent together, my mood was hazy. Your beautiful shadow, moving eyes and charming smiling face always came into my dream with the moonlight, which made me worried... I was still suffering from the expectation, and I kept thinking of you in my heart. Your face appeared again and again in front of me, still so kind and beautiful, but could not be close, just like the stars twinkling in the deep night sky at this moment... "

I stopped writing, looked at the starry sky outside the window, and took a deep breath of smoke.

"Sister Yue'er, Liu Fei takes over the work of the News Department for you. Your office is still reserved. He works with us in the big office. He treats me fairly well, and I respect him very much because he is a leader. These days I started to go out alone to interview, without you beside me, I feel a little scared, but I still survived. After the event news interview, I can submit the manuscript in time. Liu Fei is still satisfied with me these days ... Every day when I walk past your office door, I can't help looking at it. It seems that you are working in the office, making phone calls in the office, and I hope you can work in the office... I know my idea is selfish, I want you to come back, I know I should not think so, I should hope you have a bright future and a smooth career, but I really think so, I don't want to lie to you... "

"Yue'er, I have known you for so long. I have never asked you about your past, and you have never told me. It's not that I don't care about you. I often think about your sad eyes in the middle of the night. You say you have intuition about many things, and I also have intuition. Your eyes tell me your vicissitudes and frustrations, and perhaps the sadness and pain hidden in the bottom of my heart. So I don't want to stimulate you, and I don't want to recall your memories of the past Without asking about your past in front of you, I thought, perhaps, it would be better if some memories of the past were forever covered with dust... You know, Moon, the vague melancholy and sadness in your beautiful eyes often make me feel heartbroken and sad... I never thought I was a sentimental person, but since I was with you, I don't know why I have such surging emotions, How can the tide of my feelings be so rich... "

Writing here, I looked at the faint eyes of Yue'er in the picture frame and still felt blue and indifferent. A kind of dull pain and heartache arose spontaneously.

I don't want to know her past deliberately, and I don't want to inquire about her past. However, I clearly feel that from these eyes, Yue'er must have an unforgettable past, and there must be hidden wounds and pains in her heart.

"Elder sister, you have given me the sunshine of life I have never had, the warmth of motherhood I have never had, and the freshest taste of life. You are the sunshine and hope in my heart, and the guide of a new page in my life. I have never been so attached to and attached to a woman. You have become an inseparable part of my soul and body. How I want our soul to enter the same body..."

Late at night, the noisy city quieted down, and there was silence all around. Occasionally, there was the sound of the distant train whistle... I was not tired, and my mind was full of deep attachment and intimacy to the willow moon, and I kept writing

That night, I didn't go back to the dormitory. I slept on the sofa in the living room. I still didn't want to go to the bed in that bedroom. I had to wait until Liu Yue came back to sleep in bed with Liu Yue.

With a touch of lovesickness and sadness, I dreamt dimly.

At midnight, a sudden cramped knock at the door woke me up.

Who will knock at the door in the middle of the night? I got up and turned on the light and opened the door. At first glance, I saw that I was a middle-aged man of about 37 or 8, tall and straight, with bright eyes and handsome appearance. At first glance, I was a very smart person.

"Who are you looking for?" I was awakened in the middle of the night and didn't have any good temper. At the same time, I believed I was strong and didn't have any fear of the late night visitors.

The other party was obviously surprised. He looked up at the door number and then looked at me: "Who are you?"

"Who do you care who I am? I asked who you are looking for? Who are you?" I was even more upset.

"I'm looking for Liu Yue," said the other party, staring at me with two straight eyes: "I'm the father of Liu Yue's child... Where is Liu Yue?"

As soon as I heard it, my head suddenly exploded, and I was immediately confused. I immediately understood the identity of this man. Fuck me! What turn? Isn't Liu Yue's father Liu Yue's husband?

Liu Yue's husband is here!

My scalp is covered. Damn, this man is Liu Yue's husband!

At that moment, I felt very surprised, and I felt a little panic.

However, while I quickly and preliminarily judged the identity of this man, I immediately made another judgment: this shit is Liu Yue's ex-husband. There are two reasons. First, Liu Yue said that she was the only one in her family, and Liu Yue left me the key to her house; Second, this shit just said he was the father of Liu Yue's child, not the man of Liu Yue, and he didn't have the key.

I looked at this man and looked at me with jealousy in his eyes. Although he was looking for Liu Yue, he didn't mean to enter the door. This confirms my judgment.

My tall body was blocked at the door, and he looked in with his eyes dripping.

It suddenly occurred to me that the sadness and sadness in Liu Yue's eyes, the unknown pain and sorrow in Liu Yue's heart, might be the shit that brought her.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but increase my confidence, courage, and confidence. Suddenly, I felt a bit more hostile towards this strange man, who claimed to be the father of Liu Yue's child.

"I didn't mean to let him in, but my eyes quickly turned hostile and said coldly, 'Liu Yue isn't here, why are you looking for her?'"

"Who are you?" The man didn't seem to pay attention to me at all. He looked at me with the eyes of leaders and adults.

The man's disdainful eyes obviously hurt my self-esteem. I am also a reporter of the Party newspaper now. When I go to any unit to interview, I always smile, eat and drink well, and pick up and drop off. Even the directors of the ministries and commissions and offices shook hands and greeted me politely. You old boy dare to look at me in this way. At the same time, I also wondered whether the man wanted to harass Liu Yue when he smashed the door at midnight.

I was angry. I even wanted to beat this man. It was obvious that he was not my opponent. I was not only the captain of the football team, but also a member of the school martial arts team in college, specializing in sanda. A man like him, at first sight, was used to taking care of himself. He never exercised, and three or two were not under my command. I shook my shoulder from side to side, then turned my neck and made a "click" sound, like a master in Hong Kong movies. After two turns, I said to the man, "Who cares about your affairs? I told you, Liu Yue is not here."

The man looked at me with disgust, seemed to laugh at my childishness and rudeness, and obviously didn't believe me. He stretched his neck and shouted at the house: "Liu Yue, come out, I have something to do with you, I'm not harassing you, I can't call you at home, I just came to find you..."

I just remembered that I unplugged the phone of Liu Yue's home.

In the middle of the night, the man's voice was particularly loud. I was a little irritated. I stretched out my hand and pressed the man's shoulder. With a little effort, he shouted, "Ouch!" Why are you? It's rude. "

"I said that Liu Yue is not here. What are you doing?" I was angry. "Go away, don't make me angry."

When I think that this may be the man who caused Liu Yue pain, I don't hesitate to start.

He didn't seem to have been offended by such rudeness. He stepped back, took off my arm and looked at me with a stern look.

"I didn't follow up, but I was still stuck at the door, saying, 'What's up? Let me tell Liu Yue later.'"

The man seems to believe that Liu Yue is really gone now. He looks at me coldly and recovers his arrogant and reserved attitude: "Well, please tell Liu Yue that Nini is in hospital with a fever and crying for her mother in the hospital. Neither the stepmother nor the nanny can see her, so let her decide whether to go or not!"

After that, the man brushed his greasy and meticulous parting with his hand, looked at me contemptuously, and went downstairs.

I stood at the door stunned. Nini has a fever and is in hospital. Looking for her mother, where is her mother?

I was a little disoriented for a while. Nini must be Liu Yue's child. The child had a fever and was hospitalized to find her mother. The stepmother and nanny couldn't see it. However, Liu Yue was not there either. I looked at the time at 3:00 a.m. At this time, I didn't have Liu Yue's contact number, and I can't find Liu Yue now.

When I thought of Nini crying in the hospital to find her own mother, I saw the scene of mother and son crying in the Taiwanese film "Mom, Love Me Again", and my nose suddenly soured.

Poor Nini, I used to live with my stepmother. Alas

I sat beside the telephone in the living room, plugged in the telephone line, and wondered how to find Liu Yue. After thinking for a long time, there is nothing I can do about it. The fastest thing I can do is to wait until the day when I go to work. I need to call Liu Yue at 114 to find the information office of the Propaganda Department of the Provincial Party Committee. There is really no other way. However, the thought of poor Nini crying in the hospital made me feel very sad.

The more I didn't want to pry into Liu Yue's past, the more I came to visit a shitty man who claimed to be the father of Liu Yue's child. Damn it, he was also very arrogant, domineering, and very good looking. He had the temperament of a mature man, and he also had a leadership style.

I leaned on the sofa, smoked cigarettes, and began to fantasize. Liu Yue and this man divorced, which must be bad for this man and hurt Liu Yue. Then Liu Yue angrily divorced, and the child was awarded to the man. The man has married again and found Nini's stepmother. Alas... innocent child, victim of adult marriage