Chapter 19:

Golden Reunion

Annika Says No!

Short golden blonde hair flowed all the way down to her neck, where the tips of her bangs just inches short of her shoulders. Her eyes were colored with amber, with a gaze as warm as the sunshine. She gave me a smile with the lips of an angel, soft and plump in its rosiness. What complimented her facial features perfectly were the bountiful breasts sticking out of her dusty red ruffle sleeve dress, unafraid to show them off to the world and her generous thighs showing off its bare skin from underneath the skirt.

Although quite daring with her fashion sense, most people might call her the woman of their dreams, but to me, she was the woman of my nightmares.

“It’s nice to see you again, I’ve missed you so much!”

She wrapped her arms around my waist in a swift motion, keeping me in place with her tight embrace. Her breasts pushed against my chest, and all I could do was stare in shameless wonder.


“I see you’ve grown taller and gained a lot of muscle these days, you’re such a big boy now!”

Her tone was nothing short of hypnotic, captivating to the ears and leaving me in a state of trance, where my thoughts were clear on the inside, yet I had no control over my very own body. It’s as if I had been taken into a state of limbo.

Get off me, you damned vixen!

I wanted to scream out those words, but I couldn’t get myself to speak coherently.


“Please what? Oh, did I hug you too tightly? Sorry about that!”

Suvi let go of my body and scratched her head with a giggle. She placed her hands behind her back and looked me straight in the eyes. Unlike Annika, whose eyes sparkled like the shimmering sea, Suvi’s eyes were more like the mellow sunset, keeping you hooked in its colors. I cut my sight away from her face to avoid her bewitching gaze.

“Who knew that we would meet here of all places? What a strange twist of fate.” She playfully moved closer to me and licked her lips. “It must be…..destiny.”

I stepped back and continued to look away from her face, yet the distance between us didn’t change.

“Excuse me, I-I’m going to the restroom,” I muttered.

I tried walking to the restroom, but Suvi grabbed my hand.

“You’re still a terrible liar.”

I escaped from her grip and wrapped my hand around her own hand, crushing it with my fingers. Suvi let out a slight wince, but quickly transitioned to another giggle.

“Are you still mad about what I did?” she asked.

The trembling fear of my heart morphed into a spirit of anger, and I finally gained the courage to look back towards her face.

“Did you really think I would just forgive and forget?” I glared at her.

My eyes seemed to bulge out of its sockets, and I felt some veins popping out of my forehead. I have given her all signs of my hostility to the woman. Words could not express my fury towards this human being.

“I guess not,” she said, her face unwavering.

Suvi caressed my cheek with her hand, which startled me, but I didn’t lean away from her touch.

“I’m sorry for everything.”

A simple four word apology. Did she really think that was enough to settle everything?

Before I could complain, she leaned my head closer to her face and curved her lips.

“I know that isn’t enough to satisfy you. That’s why…..”

She moved her lips into my ears.

“You can vent out all your anger on me. Punish me however you like, Kwan. My body is all yours.”

All the burning fury that developed within me had suddenly evaporated into thin air. The way she delivered those words was given with a gentle heartfelt passion, with not even an ounce of hesitation or disdain present in her tone. The neurons in my body burst into chaos, unable to process the next move. The monsters in me were ready to explode, ready to unleash all the energy I’ve been holding back all this time.

My greatest weakness.

“I’ve been a bad girl to you. It’s only right that you can have your way with me.”

Sure, my alcohol and smoking addictions were pretty bad, but they could not compare against the relentless force of lustful desires in my flesh. A month’s worth of restraint, all packed down inside my balls.

Suvi knew exactly how to exploit that, and that’s why she was the person I feared the most.

“I can’t.”

I shoved Suvi away and started running in the opposite direction, never looking back.


Annika and Max would probably be pissed that I decided to ditch them, but that was the least of my concerns. I had to get away from that woman, no matter what. Any more seconds with her and I could lose control of myself. Everything that I worked on to keep my new promise, could crumble into ruin at any moment. I couldn’t allow that. I don’t want to disappoint Annika again!

I escaped the mall and decided to take a taxi back to the apartment. Upon taking a seat at the very back, I took a deep sigh and pulled out my phone. I sent a message of apology to Max and Annika, then switched my device to silent mode.

It was a long silent ride of contemplation, recalling all of my previous memories and sorting out all the gibberish of emotions in my head. I didn’t know what to do anymore. Everything felt like a mess. I’m in a state of purgatory, stuck in between everything, unable to do anything.

That chance encounter with Suvi served as a reality check for me.

No matter how hard I try to change myself, I am unable to escape my dark nature. If I can’t even think straight in front of her, could I truly overcome my dirty desires? I love women. I love sleeping with women! I can’t deny that! It’s hopeless. Why should I try to stop it?

But no! I have to! Annika believes in me! I can’t let her down. I have to keep myself together. Come on! Keep your head in the game!

“Um, sir? Are you okay?”

The taxi driver interrupted my thoughts.

“Huh? Oh, yeah. Sorry.” I scratched my head.

The taxi dropped me off right next to the apartment, and I made my way up the stairs to my room. I unlocked the door with the key, went inside, took off my clothes and fell on the bed. I was not in the mood for anything else.

Maybe all I needed was a good night’s rest. I just need to calm down, and have another fresh start tomorrow.

F.C Fondness