A Change of Heart?

Ah... tonight's gonna be another sleepless night...

I lay in bed after arriving home slightly over 10 o'clock. My head still wide awake after drinking with Kei-kun and the others. Apparently the drinks didn't help erase the thoughts lingering in my head. 

As I expected, even with the hangout I couldn't shake the uneasy feeling, especially after what happened earlier today.

Shuu... you idiot. You should've just ordered normally. It's not my fault Kei-kun punched you, you were annoying us. 

"Even if I did make a mistake, you wouldn't help me? You could've helped by at least saying something." Somehow I can imagine Shuu replying to me with these words. 

Could I...? Could I have eased the tension? 

I lay flat staring up to my ceiling in the darkness of room. My mind completely blank, trying to grasp the entire situation altogether. 

All of a sudden from the emptiness of my mind a question arises: Do I still have Shuu's contact? 

I reached over to my phone and scrolled through the list of my contacts. And way-way down among the list, there it was. My chat with Shuu. I wonder when was the last time we talked there. And what was it about.

I cleared my throat before opening our chat. 

What I saw wasn't much of a conversation. It was the same case as with Miu. The chat was filled with Shuu asking me how I've been and if I wanted to hang out with him. The most recent of them were not even answered and the one's before them I simply told him 'I'm busy'.

I... I kinda feel bad. 

For a moment I simply stared at the screen, scrolling up and down the chat. The more I read, the more it feels like I was the reason we separated. And the longer I looked at our conversations, the heavier the feeling in my chest becomes. The guilt towards Shuu and Miu. And the curiosity on what he knows about Miu. 

What does Shuu have to do with all of this?

Until at one point I decided to chat him right there and then, "Shuu, I'm sorry about what happened earlier today. Can you please tell me about Miu?" 

Ah... what am I doing? It's late, he's probably not gonna answer. I wouldn't be surprised if he deleted my contact or even blocked me. But... I just feel like I had to. I need to know what happened with Miu. 

I spent the next few minutes just looking at the message I sent. My mind thinking of all the possible answers Shuu could answer me with. I waited and waited, and he didn't answer. 

After an hour or so of simply staring at the chat I made a follow up text, "I'm sorry Shuu. I know you're probably not reading this. You probably have blocked me or something. But, I mean it. I'm sorry."

What am I doing... he's not gonna answer...

"I'm sorry to Miu as well." I texted one final message. 

I woke up realizing I had fallen asleep until morning while I was waiting for an answer from Shuu. An answer! I instantly sit up on my bed after remembering that I was waiting for an answer from Shuu. 

But then, my sane self realized and accepted the fact that Shuu is not going to reply to me. But still...

To be sure, I grabbed my phone which was lying next to me. I know he's not going to answer, but it's for some reason I'm really nervous. My heart is beating so fast this early in the morning. The sweat in my palms are making a mark on my phone. 

Okay... let's just open the phone and get it over with... If he answered, then good for me. If not, then it is kinda expected. 

I opened my phone and typed my password. I forgot I haven't closed my phone and my heart skipped a beat as it instantly opened up to our chat.

There was nothing. No reply. 

Sigh. I knew it. I was getting worked up for absolutely nothing. Ah man... what am I supposed to do now...

What time is it? 8:45. I'm just gonna take a shower. We're going out again today. It's best to make the best out of the holiday. 

I stood up from my bed and walked towards the bathroom, feeling completely miserable. Maybe taking a bath will help me feel better.

Well, I tried I guess...

However. When I went to the bathroom, I haven't turn my phone off. As I was in the bathroom, my phone was still laying on my bed, showing our chat. And in the corner of the screen, to be exact on the bottom-left corner above the typing space, a message bubble appears. Indicating someone is typing. 

After a moment, the message bubble disappeared. And a message appeared, "Meet me at the park at 12. Today."