Do I have to?

       Well, today is the day. I have a little deja vu feeling honestly. I keep asking myself why.
Why again? I am getting a little scared because I have no idea what will happen, what are we gonna talk about? I feel like we used up everything last time, so what's the point? I want to be sure that I am on good terms with Shara, but this seems like a little too much to ask for.

       I am starting to get ideas of how to avoid going there. I said yes and in less than an hour
I am supposed to be there, so I think it's too late. And I might have a chance to get something out of here regarding Alan if the timing is right.

       I knew the route perfectly. It surprised me that I remembered it because I don't recall things like this, and I went to her house only once. The closer I was, the more nervous I got.
I never would have guessed that I would go through this more than once. When I finally got there, I remembered how I was standing in front of the door for so long. This time I did not hesitate to just ring the bell and wait for whatis waiting for me on the other side.

       An unfamiliar face opened the door. A woman, definitely older than Shara, so that must be her mom.

"So you must be that boy she's waiting for. She is in her room now, I'll go tell her that you are here."

       She let me in their hallway, and I was standing there till Shara arrived. We said hi to each other. I would say that it was a little awkward, but I felt like she looked really happy to see me, which i didn't expect. Things went differently than last time. Shara took me to her room, and 

I was told there is no food because her parents didn't feel like cooking tonight. They said if we get hungry, we can order something. That threw me off a bit. Especially when Shara invited me to a dinner. Now I am sitting in her bedroom.

       This is not how I thought it would go. I didn't come here starving and I don't think I'll be here for long, so we won't be needing food anyway. At least I have more time to ask her about the stuff I wanted. But for now, I am stuck here, not knowing what to do.