Guns N' Drugs-es

I sigh, what’s the point now, I’ll just find a way to kill myself and this day will be over.

I see the karaoke place, a rectangular building with <KARAOKE> on top of it in neon green and purple.

I walk in and it’s just a normal karaoke place with a common karaoke place where everyone can go and private karaoke rooms with reservations.

It seems that we got a private room as we started to walk to room 25.

We enter and I see what is normally in a karaoke place, 2 microphones, a TV and remote for navigation, some seats to sit on, a receiver to call for food, and the stupid tambourine.

Look I’m just gonna rant for a bit, why the hell is there a tambourine, like I get it it's the simplest instrument to play but I don’t want to hear a tambourine while singing a profound song.

“Yeah,” Jiro says like he was reading my mind but probably he was just saying yea about something else.

“Alright let's do this,” Anton says as he puts up an order “You guys want anything?”

Daitan asks for grilled fish and Jiro jokes that Daitan is just like a cat and Daitan punches him in the face.

“They don’t have cat,” Anton says, as if anyone asked for cat.

“Are you already drunk?” Daitan asks

Atsuo asks for some ramen and Jiro does as well after standing back up.

“I guess I’ll have some rice,” I say, not like I’ll actually eat it and that's when I realized something.

Anton has a gun in a holster, it's not a pistol, it’s what people in the US call a “<peacemaker>“ as if it ever did make peace.

I do what I think is the reasonable thing and ask Jiro about it.

“You see he keeps it so that he can shoot any minority that looks at him,” Jiro says, which I don’t think is true.

“Shit off, no that is not the reason,” Anton says, his voice back to yesterday (this will become a recurring point).

He then asks for wings like that is not the dumbest thing to ask for a Japanese karaoke place to serve.

The receiver asks “Is that all?” and Anton asks for 2 vodka bottles.

“Oh, I guess you were kidding back at the house,” I remark.

The receiver turns off and Anton turns on the TV showing multiple categories from pop, rock, and alternative to what language you want it in.

‘You always go first” Daitan complains “And you always play some awful American song”.

“<Californication> is one of the best songs of all time and no one's gonna say otherwise,” Anton says with the tone of he is gonna grip the microphone so hard, it explodes the whole block.

“And I’m doing a different song this time” he continues as he selects English and goes into <alt-rock>,  <Fall Out Boy> and finally clicks on a song called <Sugar, We’re Goin Down>.

It starts with a drum and then goes into some guitar for quite a bit. Then the lyrics “<Am I more than you bargained for yet?>“ are shown on the TV as well.

Then Anton starts to sing it so passionately but also so out of pitch, but I mean that is just karaoke in a nutshell.

Jiro picks up the tambourine and all of the friendship we accrued, I throw into the dustbin.

Not like it would even matter.

Jiro starts to play the tambourine but he is somehow playing it awfully, I couldn't even tell you how even in a million years. not like I'll even make it to next month.

The song then goes into the chorus “<We're going down, down in an earlier round>“ as Anton sings shortly after.

“<And sugar, we're going down swinging>“ he continues to sing.

“Hey go and kiss Atsuo,” Daitan whispers to me.

“What the, No?!” I retaliate.

“Yeah, fair you should just go and talk to her,” She says “And then kiss her”.

I don’t even say anything back, I just squint at her with my mouth slightly open.

“<I'll be your number one with a bullet>“ Anton sings, followed by “<A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it>“.

As it goes into the second verse, I think about that last line <A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it>. And there’s just something about that line that ticks me off.

Then Daitan pushes me into Atsuo.

“Wait what?” I say as I stumble a bit before falling right next to Atsuo.

“Hey,” Atsuo says.

“Hey,” I say, feeling the blush on my cheeks.

I wait for Atsuo to say something more, but it’s just nothing.

I try to drain the blush on my cheeks and after I realize I can’t do that I focus on the song again.

At about that exact moment the chorus comes in again and at the last line “<A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it>“ I feel a bit uneasy about it.

I then see what it means in the verse after the next verse, it does the chorus one final time as the people who work at the place bring the vodka bottles.

In the backing track, I hear the singer go “<take aim at myself>“ followed by “<take back what you said>“ looping like that until it finishes with “<A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it>“.

I think Atsuo realized it as well as she stood up and said to all of us “Let's do a lighter song”. But instead of a “lighter” song, she puts on “Into the Night” by YOASOBI.

“CoMe oN do aN eNgliSh soNg,” Anton says stupidly in the Japanese karaoke place where everyone else in the room is Japanese but to be fair he already drank he already started to drink one of the vodka bottles.

I then look at his gun and get my next suicide plan, I would just shoot myself in the head with someone else’s gun, reminding myself that this plan will work because I won't do it in front of him.

Jiro excuses himself to go to the bathroom while Atsuo starts to sing (she pauses the song to take a huge swing of vodka).

“Just like I'm about to sink” she sings (Translation from the official music video).

I've decided to ignore it for now to concentrate, but am glad that it’s the last song I listen to before I die.

I decided that the only challenge now is having Daitan not notice me but it seems that she is talking to someone else on her phone.

I got the gun without much resistance. I just said “I just want to look at” and Anton gave it to me.

I go out the door without much resistance from anyone else.

The outside can be seen from here with the door open at the moment which is bad for the plan.

I first checked that the safety on the gun was off which it was and then thought to go to the bathroom to finish it.

“Wait no Jiro is there” I remember.

At that moment I see that there’s a silencer on the gun and then I get another idea, just end it all here.

Hear me out, no one will hear it, plus the karaoke places are already soundproof both ways so it’s all perfect.

I check the barrel to make sure that it has bullets. It does but they are for some reason tinted black, I chalk it up to some design choice.

I put it up to my head, my brain trying to preserve its life by flashing images like last time but I don’t let it this time and pull the trigger.