How it usually went

So our fans apparently likes the vlog, because they like seeing us being silly and Olivia being more alive than she usually is, even though she is always behind the camera.

Oh, and our latest music video is picking some steam, I mean it's not like its got millions of views or something, but still way more than we usually got, I wonder if koko heard it too? maybe, though he probably wouldn't care or maybe even disgusted because someone like me still can't move on after all these years.

What should we do after this? I mean of course keep making music, but like are we going to do the same thing over and over? I want to do concerts at some point, but are the others okay with that? Why am I even asking this to myself, when I can just ask them on the group chat, I gotta stop overthinking everything, it's ruining myself.

I sent a message to the group, "Would you guys like to do a concert?"

No one answered, well it's 10 in the morning and everyone have their own life while I'm here doing nothing in my bedroom, I don't know what to do, and I don't feel like getting up right now, this bed is too comfy.

Maybe listening to music to pass time, let me get my earphone on my bedside table. This earphone is older than my cat, I broke the cable four times (fortunately it's replaceable), and at some point it's swimming down the washing machine because I forgot to take it out from my pocket.

It is kinda annoying that I have to use a dongle to use it because phones nowadays don't have a headphone jack. I know wireless earphones or headphones are pretty good nowadays, but I don't trust myself with remembering to charge them, because sometimes I forgot to charge my phone even though I use it very often.

I open youtube music, and just play a song that I like and let the algorithm ruins my listening experience, because even though most of the time it give me the same song I've heard, sometimes it just throw me a curve ball with something very out of place, or even worse this band that won't change their sound a little bit but still raking millions of streams.

There is nothing special about the band, the performance is average to below average most of the time, the songwriting is nothing special, it's kind of mind boggling to me why that kind of music always flourish while something more soulful or interesting rarely took off. I mean I know why, it's inoffensive, more easy to the ears, and basically a background filler most of the time. It fits into any place because it doesn't attract much attention in the first place, people only hears it as a background to fill the silence.

It is very annoying though to listen it everywhere, this band especially. I hear them in the mall, ads, anime, and youtube keep shoving me their song even though I disliked their song. There is this new anime, with a high fantasy setting and the theme is about the loss of someone, they still didn't change their sound even a little bit, it sounds so off that it kinda turns me off from watching it, even though it's pretty good as far as I know.

My cat jumps onto my bed, and sleeps on my chest, what an adorable creature. I'm patting her, she's so soft and warm, I want to bury my head in her belly.

I picked her up, put her upside down, and then kiss her belly like it's, I can't say that. She keeps meowing and when I lift my head, she is pushing my face with her paws, oh what an adorable creature, I stop because she might get angry and ignores me again.

So I'm laying on my bed again, still listening to music, the algorithm hasn't screwed me yet, and there is nothing happening with my life right now, which is not a rare occurrence, but still can't get over it.

My phone rings, are they finally saying something? I checked it and it's a spam message, I swear to god.

It rings again, it's actually a person now, Olivia sent "where?"

Oh right, where, part of me want to do a free concert at the town square or like somewhere public space so more people can see us, but the last time I did that a police asked me to leave. Other part of me thought about Sunny, the livehouse slash studio where we recorded our latest song, but we need to join the audition, and after that maybe we need to meet a ticket quota, I don't know.

I don't even know if we have fans around here, other than Shiina of course.

"I've been thinking on the town square or plazas, but the last time I did that a police aren't happy." I want more people to see us though.

"You did it in broad daylight, in evening should've been fine."

"It's allowed??"

"You should get out more."

"I don't have any reason to get out."

"Anyway, I'm free on weekends as usual."

So let's just wait until Hanako and Shiina's answer, I didn't know that you can do it at evening, I thought it's banned full stop.

We rehearsed a few times at Olivia's home when her parents are away, we should be fine, it's not like we're completely amateurs anyway, other than me maybe, I still sucks at playing guitar and singing.