Sisters Bound by the Force

“So. Girls, anything feeling you wish to share?” Master Tonnis asks, and I feel like I’m right back in his class. Melra of course starts first. 

“I feel angry.” She says teeth clenched. 

“What does that feel like?” My Master asks. 

“Like fire. Like rage. Like the urge to smash something with the force.” She says. He nods. 

“Why do you think you feel that way?” He asks. 

“Because she left us-“ She starts, pointing at me. 

“That’s not fair.” I’m not one to interrupted, but I’m not an immune to her starting squabbles. “You abandon me-“ 

“Girls.” Tonnis says sharply. “Melra keep going.” 

“My whole life I’ve looked up to you. Fallowed you around. Let you take the lead. The three of us are the only family we have, and you left. You left us. You left me.” 

“You abandon me. Made me choose.” I say. I could sense her dabbling in the dark side, but I never expected her to leave. 

“They never would have let us stay. I won’t pretend to be something I’m not. Is that what you wanted?” She says.

“No-” I sigh. “I just don’t understand.” Why did she want to leave so bad? Why couldn’t they stay with me. Why could you adjust like everyone else. My old Master nods. 

“What about you Zylla?” He asks. We sit around a camp fire. 

“I don’t know- I feel confused I guess.” I say.

“What else?” Tonnis asks. 

“I don’t know.” He always said I was never very in touch with my emotions. 

“I feel- like I want you to stay.” Melra rolls her eyes. 

“That’s not an emotion.” She states. 

“Can you even feel positive emotions.” I snap. We know how to get under each others skin.

“Ladies.” My old Master repeats. “I left because I’ve always felt draw to the dark side despite where I grew up.” 

“Me too. I mean you saw me. I have trouble meditating, keeping my calm, and not growing deeply emotionally attached. Emotions are what drive me. They are me.” She says. I can’t deny that. “We can’t all be a prodigy. 

“I’m not a prodigy.” I repeat. I can sense her jealousy. I was always seemingly more powerful than the rest of the class from very young age. I’ve always felt connect to the force, and other life forms. For as long as I can remember. They say I have a natural understanding with the force. Melra’s never been on that same level. Maybe it would help her to connect with the dark side instead. Maybe now she’ll come into her power. Come into herself. 

“I’ll tell them you’re not returning. I’ll leave in the tomorrow.” I say. 

“You could stay.” Melra says. 

“I’ll think about it.” She nods. We unroll sleeping bags. She knows I probably won’t change my mind. I’ll do as I was asked.