My Life [Blu-ray] (cringe warning)

I am sitting there. I don't know where there is, but it's certainly not here. Maybe it's somewhere, who knows, but that's not important.
My life has been one of failure, one of regret and uncertainty. I hated it and honestly still do. But in a world as bleak as ours, what is there to love if not your own life. What else is there to console oneself with than the few moments of happiness I have had in my life, the few moments when I could forget my problems and feel like a normal person. Maybe I am a normal person, maybe everyone feels that way, but I don't enjoy it and I won't pretend that I do. I'm not going to wear a mask, not anymore, I'm not going to put on a smile when there's really nothing to smile about.
I'm done with all of that, so what am I left with but the two options? To end it here or to think back to a better time?

This has no connection to me, i am not suicidal, leave me alone