Chapter 8:

Happiness is not out of stock

who I am is not who I want to be


The year 2018:Bookmark here

Karma shivered and pulled her coat tighter around her as she stepped outside the shop.The weather felt cold. Winter was almost there. Rain was about to start, Me and Karma, standing near a pet shop. While staring at a Fat Ginger Cat, Karma's eyes had a gloomy look inside. I felt as if she is missing someone or as If that cat reminds her of something.Bookmark here

I politely said to her:Bookmark here

" Who is the person you want to see the most right now? "Bookmark here

She said:Bookmark here

" No one. "Bookmark here

I asked her again. And she said:Bookmark here

" It is a person whom I can only talk to in my heart. It is a person who does not speak to me when I am in a crowd. Whenever I am Alone an echo keeps on increasing in my mind and tells me to Speak. It's like a trauma that reminds me that I am not allowed to Love my life. "Bookmark here

I said to her:Bookmark here

" I don't have any idea what sort of trauma you have faced but, I will try to make you fell in love with your life again. The world is full of beautiful and generous people. "Bookmark here

She said:Bookmark here

" That is not possible now. I am too old to believe in that shit. This is a world that considers that the scent of artificial flowers has love in it."Bookmark here

I said to her:Bookmark here

" It's okay to cry if the past was scary. You just need to welcome the morning with a smile. Don't be afraid to start walking toward a new life. "Bookmark here

" Allow yourself to adore the world and people around you. "Bookmark here

She said to me:Bookmark here

" You are a liar just like everyone else."Bookmark here

I said to her:Bookmark here

" There are probably lots of things that I don’t even know about you. I worry about your heart Karma because you don't care about other people's problems and make fun of them. Even the people who are trying to make you laugh with all their might. They are actually suffering and crying their heart out because of you. "Bookmark here

She shouted at me and said:Bookmark here

" You say you're not, but you're still a liar. You are not worried about me. You are only worried about yourself."Bookmark here

She pushed me away and started walking further, further, and further away and, she said:Bookmark here

" Too many chances have been given to you. "Bookmark here

Whenever she pulled me away, It made me believe that I should become more closer to her. She is a human worthy of love. She tries to deny it, but she loves the way I adore her. Leaving me behind hardly hurts her at all.Bookmark here

There are some feelings that She'll never know about. Unsaid Sad words that burnt my throat. She will never know the value of feelings, I was holding for her. Her heart was Colder than a Pirate’s heart.Bookmark here

She did not ask me to come to her place for the next few days. She ignored my messages and calls. During those days when she was ignoring me, I was worried for her.
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I was worried for her. I promised myself that I won't ever let her be all alone. I will become better than I was before. After waiting for four days, I went to that pet shop. I looked around in the shop. A shopkeeper came to me and said:Bookmark here

" Do You want to buy any pet? "Bookmark here

I turned around and said to the shopkeeper:Bookmark here

" Four days ago, I came to your shop and I saw a fat ginger cat. I want to buy that cat. I can't see that cat here. Where is that cat? "Bookmark here

The shopkeeper saw at the backside and said:Bookmark here

" Ohhh!! Bookmark here

That fat ginger cat. That cat is sleeping behind that white cat. "Bookmark here

I was relieved. I thought as if someone else bought that cat. I Bought that fat ginger cat as a gift for Karma, from the money that I earned from bug bounty hunting. I wanted to make her feel beloved.Bookmark here

Made of distorted melodies, we humans are creatures worthy of love. We have all been lied to and gotten hurt in the past. We all face some sort of psychological trauma throughout our lives. Emotional trauma is the same as psychological trauma. Both names are just popular ways to differentiate physical injury. Some people may develop phobias and anxiety associated with such experiences. I wanted to help her from getting rid of her past trauma.Bookmark here

Despite she ignored every text and call of mine. Still, I was desperate to meet her. I approached her. I knocked at her door as the bell was not working. Bookmark here

She did not open the door. I knocked on it again. I waited for fifteen minutes, but she did not open the door for me. I was holding a bucket in my hand in which that fat ginger cat was feeling annoyed with me. I was walking back and forth. I waited for another fifteen minutes, but she did not open the door. It started to rain, and I returned back to my home with that annoying cat.Bookmark here

After I went back to my home that cat started to lick itself. I felt disgusted after seeing that cat licking its own body. I am definitely not a cat lover. Only because of Karma, I took that 'moody creature' to my home. My younger sister: Rin came into my room and screamed with joy. She was definitely one of those fools who love being ignored. Bookmark here

That cat started to rub itself with my sister and started to meow, meow.Bookmark here

It came closer to me and jumped onto my bed, and started to crawl all over my bed. I tried to scare it and pushed it away from the bed. That fat cat was stubborn. It stuck its paws to the bedsheet and freaked me out. I asked my sister to keep that annoying creature in her room. She hugged that cat and took it away from me.Bookmark here

The Next Morning I woke up early in the morning and put that annoying cat inside a bucket. I bought some chocolates and a small card. I wrote on that card: Bookmark here

" Happiness is not out of stock. Knock on my door if you won't find it anywhere else"Bookmark here

I went to Karma's home. I was about to knock on the door and The door opened before I knocked. Karma came outside and was surprised to found me at her door.Bookmark here

I was breathing heavily, and I was confused after seeing her and said to her:Bookmark here

" Where were you? I was so worried for you, but you were busy ignoring me."Bookmark here

She yawned and said:Bookmark here

" I was not busy ignoring you, but I went to my sick Grandma that kept me Busy. "Bookmark here

In the middle of our conversation, that annoying cat started to meow. It got Karma's attention. I gave that bucket to her and said to her:Bookmark here

"It is a present from me to you. "Bookmark here

She jumped for joy after seeing that cat and hugged that cat. She started to act like a kid after holding that fat ginger cat. She was on cloud nine after receiving that act as a gift from me.Bookmark here

She said to me:Bookmark here

" Zack, Thank you so much!!Bookmark here

It is a worth-loving gift. It is one of the best gifts I have ever received from anyone. "Bookmark here

I said to her:Bookmark here

" Seeing you happy makes me happy."Bookmark here

She said:Bookmark here

"Let's go inside and decide a name for it. "Bookmark here

She looked inside the bucket and saw the card I placed for her.Bookmark here

She took that out and read it out and said:Bookmark here

" Zack, I will remember to knock on your door in case happiness is out of stock nearby me. "Bookmark here

It was the first time that she called me by my name. My name sounded like a melody in her voice. I almost turned red while blushing.Bookmark here

Karma said:Bookmark here

" Stop blushing and start thinking about a name for my cat. "Bookmark here

I made a list of names suitable for cats and showed her. She asked me to read that list, and I started reading it and said:Bookmark here

Boulderface, Spitemouth, Morncat, Helltree, Oscar the Grouch, Skeletor, Ghosts, Cloudling, Minotaur, Malificient, Hauntling, Flametooth, Hydra, Haunthand etc..

She said:Bookmark here

"Eww!!!
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I asked you to suggest me a name for a cat, not for a monster. "Bookmark here

I giggled and said:Bookmark here

" Your cat is a monster. "Bookmark here

She said:Bookmark here

" Not a Bigger monster than you. I have decided to call my cat 'Hazel.'Bookmark here

I said to her: Bookmark here

" Every single name that I suggested to you was better than this. "Bookmark here


She smiled and said:Bookmark here

" Will you come with me?"Bookmark here

I said to her:Bookmark here

" where? "Bookmark here

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" I want to buy a Cat collar for Hazel."Bookmark here

I agreed, and we started to move toward a shop that sells pet collars. Karma bought a cat collar with a bell for hazel and put that collar on her cat. After she put that collar on that annoying cat, It did not look like a monster.Bookmark here

(Features of Akane Toru:Bookmark here

Height: 5'2'' (Year 2015 )Bookmark here

Hair: She had long, black hair cascaded down her back. Her hair was resting on the top of the ears, come to both sides, split over the right eye with some lonely straws pinching his nose.Bookmark here

Hair Texture: Soft and SilkyBookmark here

Descriptive Hair Color: Ebony/black. Bookmark here

Skin Tone: IvoryBookmark here

Characteristics of skin tone: Porcelain to light skin color, without or with minor imperfections, sensitive, and could easily burn under the sun Bookmark here

Nose: SharpBookmark here

Eyes: She had Icy blue eyes that are a bit whitish or a glassy shade of blue.Bookmark here

Cheeks: Chubby cheeks with Hallow dimple on cheeksBookmark here

Chin: Cleft chinBookmark here

Jaw: Jaw narrowed )Bookmark here

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