Chapter 9:
who I am is not who I want to be
Karma had always been partially a misanthrope.
Did she hate humanity? No, Her logic did not allow it because The whole human race should have to emotionally scar or violently abuse her, and she did not think that was possible. She did harbor a deep disgust towards people, which people were able to hear blending into her voice sometimes.
She did not like kids, old people, Teenagers, infants, most of the animals, going to parties, and everything that normal people like.
Our friendship lasted for three years, four months, and seventeen days. You can say almost for Three years we stayed in connection. At the stroke of midnight, my life changed and, she disappeared from my life suddenly.
I was not seeing the bad days coming. In the three-year duration, Karma influenced me a lot. Her perceptions of the world, things, and the situations were weird, and just like a misanthrope, she used to hate humans, Not all of them but 90 percent of them.
Often I didn't agree with her; At times when she used to explain her hatred for people, but she had a logical answer to everything that changed my point of view. It will be better if I will say that she did brainwashing on me.
On that day, when she felt disgusted after seeing a woman with a baby boy in the cradle. She shared her misanthropic point of view about infants and said:
Babies are loud. They smell weird, sometimes downright stink, mainly make messes, eat and sleep. They are useless.
They demand a big investment of time, attention, money, and energy on behalf of their caretakers. They are primarily pretty boring. I do not like infants, toddlers, and children are not much better.
Sounds funny. How can she be so annoyed with infants? She did not have any younger siblings. She is the only offspring of her parents. Maybe that is why she hates kids.
I said to her:
Miss greedy, Once, There was a time when you were also an infant or toddler. You were also smelly, loud, useless, and demanded all those things.
Karma frowned and said:
I was definitely not one of those annoying kids. I was a decent and elegant kid. I did not demand lots of things like a typical human kid. I was born special with unique traits. I am just like this ever since my birth. I have seen monkeys that are better behaved than most children. I know tons of cats, and every single one of them is cleaner and better behaved than any child that I have ever seen before.
I wanted to tease her and said to her:
But you demand ice cream always. That means you wasted lots of money of your parents for eating ice cream. Imagine how many gallons of ice cream you have consumed till now.
Her eyebrows were lowered and pulled closer together. Her eyelids became squinted, and she said:
I am sure. I did not waste my parent's money on my demands. I only used their money to fulfill my needs, not for my demands. In reality, parents bring children to lean on them, dump their emotions on them, and expect them to take care of them and become their slaves. Although they are fooling themselves, I sometimes secretly pray for my Parent's death. At least murdering them is not an option.
My eyebrows drew together while scolding her, and I said to her:
You don't understand the reality and importance of these bonds and relations. Sort out the little family issues you have with your parents and never speak ill about your parents again.
Vertical wrinkles appear between her eyebrows and
She said:
Remember!!
Our parents are responsible for our suffering and death if they had not brought us to the world, we wouldn’t have to suffer and die. And if we bring children to the world we are the same as our parents. How can my parents be my biggest blessings of life?
She said to me:
What if I tell you that my parents forcefully dragged me into this mess of hacking at the young age of 12. They made me quit all the activities that children are supposed to do. I never lived a typical life like you. They gave me birth to lean on me not to fulfill my demands. I want freedom from them.
I thought she is overreacting, but Karma was right. If I had to face all that trouble, I would have felt the same hatred for my parents. She never shared the rest of her story with me because she wanted to hide her real identity even from me. I thought we were close friends. For me, she was absolutely more than a friend.
I never found a perfect chance to tell her that how much importance she has in my life. Waiting for a perfect chance was a stupid thing to do. She was a misanthrope then How could I expect her to love any human.
Her parents are the biggest reason why she became a "Misanthrope."
( NOTE: Misanthropy is a general hatred, dislike, distrust, or contempt of the human species, human behavior, or human nature. A misanthrope or misanthropist is someone who holds such views or feelings. )
She was living here in this fancy town named Kyoto with her grandma. She was hardworking enough to handle her expense on her own at the age of 19, but her grandma supported her emotionally and financially. Karma left and ran away from her Dad's house due to the emotional torture she faced because of her Dad and started to live with her grandma without the acknowledgment of her father and mother.
Mister Manzo: the higher authority of the town, a corrupted and greedy man was the father of Karma. Now I can tell why Karma was so greedy. That greed was in her blood. When a parent is abusive or neglectful, since children are born with the strong instinct to learn from and copy their parents, it is more often the parent's fault than the child's fault. She belonged to a rich family, but she didn't consider her father's money as her own.
Karma started to learn about hacking when she was 12, and at the age of 19, she had an experience of 3 working years with few experts. She never made many friends. Friendship seemed like a troublesome chore to her. Her father wanted her daughter to compete with one of his businesses Rival's sons. Mister Manzo had a business rival who had a son named Saho.
Saho was four years older than Karma. Saho was one of those humans which Karma could agree to kill anytime. Being compared with Saho, again and again, and bashed because she was not intelligent like Saho made Karma sick. It was an untold story for me for many years.
(Features of Akane Toru:
Height: 5'2'' (Year 2015 )
Hair: She had long, black hair cascaded down her back. Her hair was resting on the top of the ears, come to both sides, split over the right eye with some lonely straws pinching his nose.
Hair Texture: Soft and Silky
Descriptive Hair Color: Ebony/black.
Skin Tone: Ivory
Characteristics of skin tone: Porcelain to light skin color, without or with minor imperfections, sensitive, and could easily burn under the sun
Nose: Sharp
Eyes: She had Icy blue eyes that are a bit whitish or a glassy shade of blue.
Cheeks: Chubby cheeks with Hallow dimple on cheeks
Chin: Cleft chin
Jaw: Jaw narrowed )
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