Waking Up In An Early Grave Part 1 - A Long Walk And Some Internal Conflict

Even before I woke up, I felt the difference first hand.

Mostly because of the splitting headache and also because of how damn hot it was.

I groaned while opening my eyes.

"Where am I…?"

I opened my eyes and saw… brown.

Yes, brown everywhere I looked. There was a harsh wind, so hot that I was feeling dehydrated already. Sand whoosed past me being carried away by the wind.

I stared at my hands…

"Huh?" I said to myself. My hands looked… different. The same age but the skin was darker.

And now it reminded me of this one thing I heard that went "I am the bone of my sword…" or something.

Then I figured out one other thing. I was mortal. And alone…

"Alright. I guess it's time to get walkin'."

And that's what I did. I walked.

There was no water. No water ANYWHERE. If anything was supposed to exist here, then they must be one heck of a species.

As days of walking passed, I noticed a few things.

The sun was eternal in a sense because it never set. Meaning that night was non-existent. On a side note: These migraines are a pain in the ass.

Secondly, there were only small creatures and they looked… weird… one had this thing bulging out of its back. Damn, now I couldn't unsee that.

There were no dangerous creatures so far… but everything looked eerily unusual. Like this place was dead inside. Empty. Abandoned.

'Just what is this place….?' I thought.

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After what seemed like a few weeks… I was so damn tired… dehydrated maybe. I wasn't sure. I never faced any of these problems when I was a God. Freedom to do whatever I want…

And that same freedom got me here… It was all my fault…

I made a friend too. I tamed one of those hummed creatures and it still didn't let me ride it. I call him Kyle now. I do not know why I named him. Maybe I was delusional and hallucinating. Or maybe it was my loneliness…

'God I wish Mina and Eruer were here to see me now!'

I felt as if I was carrying the weight of the Heavens on my back. My feet were sore. It was so hot that I couldn't even lie down on the sand. The winds were so dry and harsh that I couldn't see anything clearly without sand getting in my eyes.

As I was slowly drifting to unconsciousness, I was overwhelmed with feelings of hunger and thirst that I hadn’t felt before.

I thought to myself only this…

"Why did I even destroy that dimension?"

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I was back in the Heavens…. At least that’s what it looked like when I opened my eyes. But… it was eerily quiet…

I saw the silhouette of a man in the distance.

"Hello?" I called out as the figure came closer.

"Why?" I heard a voice ask.

The voice reverberated and I looked around. I was confused about where it was coming from.

"WHY?!" the voice asked again. Shouting this time. The figure instantly appeared in front of me like one of those horror movie jumpscares.

I could recognise that form anywhere. Hair the same colour as gold. Those red eyes. The body wearing armour, ruined because of fights. The scars on his chest and the blood…

There was his angry smile too which put me on edge.

It was my own form during my time in the Heavens.

"Why didn't you rebel?" The form asked.

I stood there silent. I knew exactly what he meant but I couldn't answer.

"'We' are one person, a God. We could've rebelled against Eruer and run away from the Heavens. But you!"

The figure stopped, throwing daggers at me.

"Are you so weak and pathetic that you couldn't do something this simple?!"

I was angered. This was my egotistical side. The same part of myself that got me here in this situation.

"Oh shut up!" I told it, "I wasn't in a position to do that. And do you really think it would've been that easy? Eruer would've caught us easily if we tried. Wait, why am I talking to you? You are the reason why I am here in the first place. Just shut up, dumbass."

It wavered as I resisted. "No you listen here." It retorted, "It was your fault this happened. You couldn't fight for yourself. That's why you are here."

"Yes, it is my fault…" I agreed.

The form of myself had a smug smile on his face, "See? I told-"

"...But," I continued, giving a cold stare. "It was because I let you take control of my thoughts. You, my ego. I'm not going to listen to whatever you say…"

It gave me a stare of its own. "Shareus, one day… you just wait. You will come back to me and you will regret your poor choice…"

I smiled, "I'll cross that bridge when I get to it."

Then everything dissolved in a flash.

Waking up was the best thing that happened to me. And this time I made a decision.

I'm going to complete what I'm here for and get back to the good old days. I'll survive.

And I continued walking…