Chapter 12- Why in The World Would I Give My Heart and Soul To You?

Prohibido was the best work of art I've made, and it reflects my journey so much. Taking some time away from what I viewed as my home for the past seven years was the best, and returning to the city of angels was great.

It's allowed me to better myself and understand my roots.

Being back here reminds me of the phoenix mythology I've read about in the past. With the new me rising from the ashes of my dead self that was discarded and lost for good.

I may be absent from those I care about in person, but I finally found the true self I've been suppressing for so long.

It would be disrespectful to say my grind was comparable to the late Nipsey Hussle, but that man's music helped me so much. There was so much, I learned from that man and his commitment to improving.

I wish to give solutions to young people to those going to similar things like me, and I want to be an inspiration to all.

I won't follow the norms of society any longer. Taking the college route can be the biggest mistake, you can make when you don't even know yourself. You're just being programmed to live a job you didn't even want and did it for the pay.

The idea of chasing riches is foolish and people should chase a cure for their mental.

The school system has done generational harm to the youth and will continue doing so until they're put to a stop. They're teaching these children to follow customs and to never take risks, making them follow what others think is right instead of their own hearts.

Everybody should be thankful I didn't pursue a path that would lead to riches, otherwise, they'll be feeling more bitter about me than they already do.

College is the peak of peer pressure for high school students, where many students fall apart and fail to realize that this path isn't for them.

Being in debt for not giving their time to realize what they wanted for their lives.

Those who picked that path on, a mere whim are following a pack of sparrows and being an exotic animal that doesn't fit in that group of people.

My realization came when I started questioning why I was doing these papers late at night and having no interest in my major. Deep down, I wanted to do art.

I rebelled against this college path and started pursuing my dreams.

All this talking made me forget I should get back to them soon. I don't mind keeping close people in the dark, but I can't do that to them.

These actions of mine are costing me a bit, but it's not about the cost. It's about coming to an end with this journey.

It's not a problem. After all, I'll be more wealthy than those because I'm prioritizing myself and always will.

I'm determined to change. I'll no longer be a hostage. Bring the torches and burn it all down.

I don't need to be in flesh to hug you all any longer. Our occasional talks are enough to tell me that you can tell how much better I'm doing.