wishes and lies

Six months ago, I was diagnosed and I was recently admitted to the hospital, because my days are numbered

The doctor comes in and breaks the news to me. "I'm sorry, but your prognosis is not good. We can make you comfortable and do everything possible to make your remaining days as comfortable as possible."

“I was hoping to just die anyways” I responded "my mom died of leukemia as well, and I was not hoping for a different outcome for myself. "I said as I excuse myself to the doctor and ask for permission if I can go to the roof for some fresh air.

doctor understand and let me go.

I was about to close the elevator door when a boy around my age suddenly blocked the elevator door and he smiled at me. I was surprised and didn't expect us both to head to the roof

we both step out from the door and when I started walking away from the hallway, I felt a sense of awe and wonder as I took in the beauty of the city and the stars above.

The breeze blowing through my hair was calming and peaceful, and I felt a sense of peace and tranquility thinking about how vast and expansive the world is and how small and insignificant we are in comparison

”why do everything in this world must come to an end? "I thought

My eyes were glued to the stunning view of the city and the stars above me" Aw this is such a nice break from the hospital room and a quiet and comforting place to be alone "

I had forgotten that I was standing outside of the railing and, in that moment of distraction, I accidentally tripped.

Time suddenly seemed to slow down as I fell through the air. My eyes widened and my heart began to race. Suddenly, I realized that I could see everything in such detail. The lights from the buildings below, the stars above, the wind blowing though my hair. It was a strangely serene moment, and despite the circumstance, I felt strangely calm.

"I often think of the moon and stars as guiding lights for lost souls in the dark. “I heard a voice from my head” it's a reminder that we're never really alone in the night .We're always surrounded by the stars and the moon, who never abandon us.”

That’s right…that’s what my mother told me back then

‘‘They say life may actually flash before our eyes when we die''

I guess it’s true

I could not hear anything...not even my own heart beat

“Is this what it feels like to die? It's scary... I'm scared”

The truth is… All my life I feared death. Everything I said about wanting to die was all a lie

The idea of death... horrifies me.

I opened my eyes after I had enough courage to do so. “God, even just for now, please...please ...give me a little more time “I whispered in prayer when I suddenly felt a strong hand grab ahold of mine. I was left reeling and dangling from a height as a result.

Every day I always wish i could have just die but at that moment, i felt a strong desire to live again

I looked up in surprise to see the boy who had been in the elevator with me earlier. He had somehow managed to run up to the rooftop and prevent me from falling.

He had a firm grip on my hand, ensuring that he was holding me steady and firmly

"What are you doing?" I asked in surprise.

"Don't worry, I’ll save you” He replied

But how? considering the time I felt passed by when I fall, I should have had my head hit the ground by now

But here I am... holding his arm

He gracefully and slowly pulled me back up to safety. I finally got a good look at his face... I realize how truly beautiful he was .

It felt like time had stopped, and I was standing still in that moment. We both just stood there in silence, taking in the night sky and the cool breeze blowing my hair away.

I fell on my knees “I was so scared! “I cried as I remember what had just happened earlier

I felt overwhelmed and couldn't help but to cry "I'm sick and only have a few days to live, but I don't want to die. I don't want to die yet!"

He looked at me with deep sympathy "You know, many people wonder what happens after death" he said in a gentle voice.

"Some believe that there is no life after death, just an endless void. But I like to think that death is not the end, but simply a transition to a new form of existence. I believe that the soul lives on, even after our physical bodies have faded away."

"know that there's still beauty and joy in life; it just takes a bit of effort to find and appreciate it. "A gentle breeze blows through the air, as if to emphasize his words.

"Life is fleeting and fragile, like dandelions in the wind," he says with a melancholy smile

**

It's been a month since that fateful incident, but he continued to bring me red roses every evening, just like before.

As time went on, we grew closer and closer, and our friendship became a constant presence in my life.

Time seemed to fly by when we were together, talking about everything under the stars. it was like we were in our own little world and even though my condition didn't get any better or worse , the rooftop became our special sanctuary.

one evening , I was sitting on the bench at the rooftop with him enjoying our time together when my doctor ran towards me looking horrified "Who are you talking to?" he asked, sounding worried and confused.

"I'm talking to my friend Thanatos" I replied casually as if it was completely normal.

"Th-thanatos?! Who's that?!" he asked, not believing my answer.

"He's my friend," I repeated as I held the bouquet of flower tightly in my hands

The doctor looked around in confusion, seems wondering where this "Thanatos" was.

“who are you talking to Olivia ? I don’t see anyone here except you”

The petals from the roses suddenly scattered everywhere by the strong wind. the doctor looked at me, a look of concern and surprise in his eyes.

"An invitation from Thanatos." he whispered

I was stunned, and I looked around in shock and fear.

The roses and the wind suddenly blew stronger. I turned to look at my friend who was standing behind me when I saw a pair of black wings on his back, as he leaped over the fence, facing me.

“thanatos!” I called and tried to prevent him from falling but before I knew it…..In his right hand, he held a scythe. With his left hand stretched out gently to me as his once black hair turned into silver strands that were gently blowing in the wind. I was petrified and did not reach out.

"I am the angel of death " he declared

For an instant, everything was still, as if time had stopped. The breeze ceased and the roses became motionless in the air

“A grim reaper?” I whispered, and he gently smiled at me.

His eyes sparkled with the pastel colors of  rainbow, reflecting the moonlight's glow

I was struck by his gaze, staring back at me as if seeing my very self... gazing into a mirror of my own reflection.

My heart raced and I didn't know what to do. I felt frozen in fear and couldn't move.

With a kind and patient look on his face. His hand was still reaching out to me, offering me a chance to take it.

"I've given you so much time, Olivia, and I don't have much time left" he said in a gentle voice

His beauty was intoxicating, tempting in the way that one might be tempted to embrace death

Slowly, I took his hand and stare at him in his eye

"If you would kill me, please….," I responded through my tears, my voice shivering.

He stared at me silently, and I felt like the world was at pause. The air was heavy and still and I couldn't believe what was happening. "Please, let me die in peace" I pleaded with him.

In a swift moment, he pulled me close and gently hugged me “If that’s what you want, please stop crying and smile” he whispered

It’s so warm…”My feet could no longer feel the ground beneath me “

The wind was blowing through my hair and I felt a sense of peace...

"Life is fleeting and fragile, like dandelions in the wind,"

I could see everything below. It was beautiful and surreal. It felt like I was living in a dream…..embracing the night