The thought of death seem like a comforting escape for a girl who wishes for nothing but her own death.
After a near-death encounter, she realized that death wasn't what she had imagined it to be like.
like a sudden revelation where she realized that it wouldn't be a sweet release, but rather an irreversible end.
As she realizes that her life has been spared, she began to see the beauty of life and learns how to appreciate it for the first time.