8th December 2456
So I've said it all and I felt better in the moment. After that, not very much. I am thinking about it now and it's like she knows everything about me. I Don't know if spitting it all out was a good idea. Would she ever use it against me in the future? Who knows? I don't know her that well so maybe she is hiding some kind of toxic personality trait and when the time is right for her, she will have a hell of an arsenal.
Why would she do it in the first place? I don't know. it popped into my head like many other things. If I had something on her, that would make us even. Probably not the best way
to think about it.
I put back my notebook in the drawer and went to bed, staring at the ceiling.
I can't get my head around it, how to feel about everything. Have I done the right thing?
Did I even have a choice? Maybe this is the change that I wanted. Maybe she will change now.
While I was lying, my phone beeped out of nowhere. I didn't feel like getting up at all,
but the curiosity was killing me. And when I checked the notifications, it was kind of expected.
Shara texted me, trying to talk again about what happened today. Asking me how I feel and stuff. It's nice of her but don't want to start digging it up again. What even is there to talk about?
I was too beaten up to reply, but the more minutes passed by, the more guilty I felt about ignoring her message.
"Dunno, I feel the same I guess. I don't feel like doing anything, but happens often."
"Maybe relieved? :)"
"Not really."
"Thanks again for trusting me, it means a lot to me.""Yeah."
"You in a bad mood?""No, I am fine. I am just too tired to even think."
"Is there anything I can do?""Nah, but thanks for asking. I don't need anything."
"Okay."
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