Doubts

       It is done. I am honestly happy. I think, because the idea that the conversation was fake
like many other things recently would make me sad. I hope it's real this time. I've been thinking about what actually happened and what didn't. If I am just being stupid, or something
is wrong.

       If it had occurred once, then I could forget about it and move on but the fact that it's happening all the time scares me. I don't want to look that silly in front of people. It only happened with Shara, though. I think.

       And that's exactly what I am talking about. It's getting on my nerves. There is a chance tomorrow I come to school and she won't even know what we talked about yesterday.
 I don't want to live through that again. And I don't even know how to fix it. I visited a doctor, and he couldn't find anything so where even is the problem. Is there a problem? Maybe I just have a bad sleep, and a sleeping pill would help. I don't think I can get that.

       I hope things will be normal now. I think I hoped like this before, so I guess there's not really a chance for it the second time. I can pray I guess or something. Hoping is the only thing I can do probably.