GoneSoSoon

GoneSoSoon

I'm scared of staircases.

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    Nov 06, 2024

    To:Mo

    I had some worries when developing his character that those 'successes' would lead him to a very shallow idea of confidence and egoism. While this eventually became my main intention for leading him to the end of Act II, at first and still I tried to keep him as a 'realist'. I thought it was important for him to have the ability to recognise himself above others, although to some extents needing to be warned to watch himself, because at heart, his ability to analyse is crucial to his manipulation/lying. I thought it would be nice to eventually develop him into someone who can recognise his inabilities and not 'lie' to himself in that regard, only others. To a certain extent, Lumière already knows how insignificant his capabilities are, at least physically. However, for most of the second Act, he portrays himself as someone who can manipulate the situation to his favour -always-. and I wished for that to be to his detriment. In the symbolism of a Damocles sword, that death that always hangs overhead, it's more the case of that he recognises the sword, but imagines that he can catch the blade and stab the king in one fell swoop. He believes there is no real danger because he is the true danger. While he recognises that he is always under threat, he starts not to care, as the events he has suffered have shredded his ability to care about such a situation completely. He knows he will find some way out, perhaps suffer a bit of a loss, and continue on towards his goals. This has just been the way of things. This egoism can only be sustained by victories, and no man can win every battle. A loss might be crushing. This drive to 'perform' is partly supported by his egoistic nature, that he must be in the spotlight and receive the 'feedback' of others that directly bolster his ego. At the heart of it, Lumière is always trying to directly create an echochamber of all the things 'good' about him so that he can forget the 'detestable' parts of himself, and create the 'persona' of a figure that is untouchable, unharmable, one that can lose nothing, no one, and never suffer from sadness or grief.

    Thank you once again for continuing to read my cobbled-together work of ideas. It is barely held together by duct tape and glue. I really appreciate your input as always, and hope my pointless rants helped shed some light into some of my mental processes!

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    Sinner of the Spades
    Sinner of the Spades
    Chapter:59

    Oct 29, 2024

    To:Mo

    A lie as applied to this novel is certainly how you describe it. Later on, he describes illusion, lies, magician-ing as comprised of three principles - “The first principle of a magician is to distract. The second principle is that the distraction must have a purpose, a leading goal. The third principle is that the distraction must lead the audience to the hidden truth behind the ordeal, creating a wonderful spectacle for them to enjoy."

    This can be reasonably twisted to match what you've said here, and what he usually applies towards his 'lying' as is used to trick opponents or allies. The first is to create a reasonable belief. This cannot be half-assed, and is actually intentional in how he acts in Act II. This is the most important tenant to abide by, as it is the foundation of the lie itself. Without belief, one cannot be moved to action, and a lie might have no purpose at all.

    For acting as a magician, the first course of action was to distract the audience. They are made to 'believe' that what they are looking at is the only thing occurring, when in reality, the magician is using sleight of hand to make something happen behind the scenes. This occurrence is presented right after as a new 'truth' - this is the purpose of a lie, what it is mainly comprised of, its outcome, its goal, its purpose. The third tenant is that one must lead the audience to the hidden truth, that newly created- yet false- purpose. However, it can also be the case that this third step can also become a fourth step.

    This fourth step is true revelation, that the truth that was made to perceive was a lie all along. This would create despair, and that is the ultimate ideal outcome for a sinner.

    If someone is made to believe, through both lie and illusion, then this is certainly the case. Creating either a 'lie' or an 'illusion' is just a matter of how many steps one uses. He can create reasonable belief, a lie, and leave it at that. However, if he actualises that lie by using the second tenant, that is when it becomes an illusion, something that people believe and that people see.

    It could be said that Asmodeus called him out on his lie because he only used his first tenant, to make one believe without providing any evidence through the second tenant.

    I like to liken his actions to an argumentative essay - a claim, its reasoning, and the outcome of all of the rambling. One could take the claim at face value, and some certainly do, but more often than not, the reasoning is the most important part of the essay. This is something he will slowly come to know, and his actions will shape to fit that sequence of steps, but I thought it would be nice to start off with a bit of a foolish man who bit off more than he could chew. I thought the growth in his capabilities to manipulate would be way cooler.

    There was a parallel in this scenario that I had been building up to through the arc. The cards they played were obviously pretty important, as they showed that Lumière retained some semblance of cardistry from his work as a magician. The second was when he 'created' the illusion of the clue that Asmodeus obviously hadn't left behind, and therefore became suspicious of him through. This was part of the 'belief' that probably shook Lumière's evidenceless lie about being a Demon. Of course, this failure of a lie was the parallel to the success of one. Lumière is constantly trying to get the upper hand by using all of the 'cards' in his hand, so to speak, no pun intended. Although he begins with a 'failure' he eventually ends with a 'win'. While one might be the 'fool' in the beginning they hold the 'world' in their hands in the end.

    I really appreciate you continuing to read! I promise it gets worse! I love reading your comments and am glad you've stuck around this long. Thank you so much, as always! ^.^

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    Sinner of the Spades
    Sinner of the Spades
    Chapter:57










    Oct 08, 2024

    To:Mo

    It was something I touched on in YHHM, but chess being like a battle between kings instead of soldiers is my favourite idea. Why are they not able to capture each other? If it is the case that they were real Kings, they could easily draw their blades and fight each other to the death. So why don't they? I like to think it is the respect for the game. This war between two Kings is a battle of manipulation and tactic. Their lives are the end of the game, and if it comes to the point where they must kill each other, then they have both lost the game- if not because they were outplayed, then because they were both foolish enough to throw away their weapons, the 'people' they manipulate.

    In this chess game between two Kings, it has already been presented that they are 'manipulators'. In the way that Orion Callister can 'control' others, Lumière can 'trick' and 'lie' to others in order to get them to do as he wishes. If they lose all of their pieces in this game, then it is equivalent to their death.

    One way that this is looked at is that 'pieces' are not only the things that the King manipulates, but also that which they want to protect. A King does not 'want' to lose his queen, or his rook, or even his pawns, which can become strong given time. While someone around them might fall to their manipulation, it does not necessarily mean that the King wants to use them to their benefit. In that way, these pieces can also become something the King wants to protect.

    For Lumière, this is the people he loves, and the people he sees as the unfortunate. For Orion, this might be something left for later on~

    But these two Kings can't just fire shots at each other from afar. They are both people who have roles in society that can be upended if they cause chaos or break laws. They both have 'triggers' that can cause this condition, which would lead to the end of the game without having to use any pieces at all. For Lumière, this is the fact that he is affiliated with a religious organisation while simultaneously being part of a house of power that is all about perverting Orthodoxy to gain strength. If he were to be revealed as a Heretic, he would most certainly be captured, or even killed by his own comrades.

    For Orion, he is a nobleman. He has a bit more leniency in what he can do, but he is not immune to scrutiny. Much later on, Lumière will show that no one is safe from his plots. Even nobility can be toppled given the right preparations. And even more so than him, being a nobleman might be the worst trigger for the ending of the game. While Lumière might be captured or killed, Orion would be vilified by the public. His house might fall, and those 'pieces' that even he wants to protect might be caught in the crossfire.

    This 'game' proposed by the King in White (There's a photo reference of him in the gallery of this novel i think?) is a game of balances, where forcing one's hand might invite mutual destruction. It is a cold war, a game of information, of careful prodding, and of brazen action. To win, one might need to abandon all hope of coming out unscathed.

    In this way, even though a King will never draw his sword, he will wield one and be cut by one.

    Thanks for continuing to read and share your thoughts! I always appreciate your insight! ^^

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    Sinner of the Spades
    Sinner of the Spades
    Chapter:49


    Sep 18, 2024

    To:Mo

    So the one thing i felt was an absolute shortfall in my planning for this novel, which still took several months, was the magic system. I went in with a basic outline hoping i could discovery write it, which ended up being a bit shaky in comparison to other elements. At some times, it will probably seem somewhat inconsistent in detail, but as far as the 'basis' of this particular skillset of the mc goes, i tried to keep it very consistent as it relates to a key theme - lies. Of course, the depths of this skill of his will be gradually revealed more and more, and has insane importance as relates to some of the plot, so I'll explain it very blankly here.

    There are two parts of a persona - the 'active' element, and the 'thematic' element that the active element plays off of. This is explained relatively with two more common words- a consciousness, and a persona. The conciousness differs at times, in this chapter being Lain's consciousness and Lain's persona. It basically just means who/what is in control in addition to who/what personality is being acted out.

    For a 'consciousness' to form, their subsequent 'persona' has to be adequately formed in Lumière's mind by himself- he has to form a story, a basis, a personality and understanding for these characters within his own head so that he can 'act'/lie adequately. He was able to do this fairly quickly because 'Lain', the basis for this persona, was a storybook character he had read about quite often. So, that understanding of the persona had already been formed. He even tried to imitate this craziness earlier, when he first arrived at the house of cards. This had already been a persona he had tried to consciously form, and only now has he been given a tangible power to realise it.

    However, this is starkly different when compared to the persona of 'Ophelia', which I wanted to make obvious. Ophelia is obviously 'Lumière' as a consciousness, and 'Ophelia' as a persona. It is not a 'full' and developed persona like Lain is, and this is a primary goal for Lumière in the future. The idea is that if a 'consciousness' can be formed for a persona, Lumière has developed an adequate understanding of that character, and can perform as them perfectly.

    Of course, even if one has adapted a good enough persona to craft a separate 'consciousness' for it, it can be a dangerous thing to allow to take over, as seen on multiple occasions later with 'Lain'. Lumière will later find an adequate solution to this, so I won't talk about it much though. I just mean to confirm that yes, it is quite a dangerous thing, a double-edged blade. He loses himself in order to gain much more. The main 'benefit' of allowing another consciousness to take over isn't that it can use other powers, as it is still technically 'his' body, even if he uses illusions to change his features. It is still bound to the 'Spades'/Heresy domain of power, and intermingling it with anything else would probably cause madness. The only benefit from doing this (as far as the story has been written, there is another I have planned for a future arc) is that at some point, he needs to 'disperse' an accumulated madness by placing his own consciousness as Lumière into a rest/stasis within his own mind, and so he has to allow 'Lain' to act out his own life in the meanwhile. That was definitely a very funny endeavour.

    As for the 'dispersion' of madness as either relates to 'disappearance' or something else entirely is also a future matter. -uo

    As always, I thank you for taking such an interest in my silly little work! I appreciate the time you take to write down your thoughts. I hope you continue to enjoy.

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    Sinner of the Spades
    Sinner of the Spades
    Chapter:45