Jun 02, 2025
To:Han Quixote
As someone who always struggles with those feelings in one form or another, to varying levels (there's a scene in Tangled that describes it perfectly if you replace "I'm a terrible daughter" with "I'm a terrible writer"), this seems to be most writers' realities. I'm not sure if it's something that ever goes away, but I think it's helped by reminding yourself of the reason you write and what you want to write. Things I regularly forget and then have existential crises over every so often. So, no, it's not easy. Especially when you live with people who made a habit of tearing your work down/didn't care when you wanted them to/mocked your fragile dreams/etc. The only thing you can really do is manage it, but the methods you take to manage it are what matters. And I won't list any of my methods because they're all terrible lmao.
But, I guess I jumped in here because I wanted you to know you're not alone, in those uncertainties, in wondering about your stories. The things we write are things close to our souls, and we put our souls into them. So I'll always advocate for doing your best not to compromise on that