Jun 20, 2023
I bow in response to the reference to the hacking school 😉🫶
Oh and look what I found:
Dear diary, it’s me again … Sorae,
today was the worst day of my life. As you might have already figured out by now, there is this guy in my class I like really much, Sakurai-kun. I don’t know … he is just so cute, I can’t handle myself, whenever I see him! But in his presence I just always get so shy and nervous and then I tend to say things that are meant to be cool, but come out completely different. But I tell you what: Today I finally found a pretense to talk to him, I was SO happy! He had made his hair differently, so I sensed my chance for complimenting him. I prepared everything: I opened the two uppermost buttons of my shirt (I wanted to go absolutely sure, he noticed me - and if I have two things that should make every guy notice me, then it’s probably my two girls), walked up to him and complimented his hair with the cutest expression, I was able to muster. And he *inhales shakily* ACTUALLY TALKED BACK TO ME! I got sooo nervous, trying to look cool, that I even forgot that he actually loves his books. And I swear, I don’t have anything against reading, but I misunderstood him and out of reflex I said something really stupid. Like „Oh, yeah, learning is totally boring“, but it came out much differently.
I was cursing myself internally for my stupidity, I can tell you this much, but that was not the worst part. Some other girl seemed to have notice me approaching him. And this jealous bitch (sorry for the enunciation) simply emptied her orange juice above me! I had to fight so hard to not loose my composure (I was sticky the whole day). She probably didn’t like me talking to cute Sakurai-kun because she wanted to have him for herself or whatever. And just because her arguments were a few cups smaller than mine, she retorted to such dirty practices? In the break I sat on the toilet for half an hour and just cried. Not just was I completely embarrassed, but in front of the person I liked most. I wanted to vanish into the ground. I wanted to leave this school. I just wanted this nightmare to end.
Who needs intellect, when he can have a girlfriend as beautiful as me? (uh … I’m not implying that I don’t have intellect - I have both, actually). Please forget what happened today, Sakurai-kun. Give me another chance. I will always be there for you and I will never ever say a bad thing about your beloved books again. Just … give me another chance!
- Sorae
