Han Quixote

Han Quixote

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    Mar 29, 2025

    To:Orionless

    I'm chilling, man. Don't worry haha (but I did use my past to try and really think about what the end of the world would look like and how I could feel)

    I was gonna call it quits because the way I planned the story no longer made sense to me (and had a moment where I was like "gah, I'm not a humanities major! Why am I still writing?!"), but I decided that I would push through the story in a way that made sense.

    The premature ending was basically a summary of what was supposed to happen and an explanation of the thoughts behind the story, but... about a few hours after writing it and publishing it, I decided that I would just take a different route to the finale instead of just scrapping it all together. Hence this chapter.

    I don't actually think this chapter is very strong in the final half (especially once the conversation starts), so I might--as I repeat for the billionth time--revise when I have the time. Actually, it's almost guaranteed... I see a glaring flaw in the dialogue (translation: I think I brought up something too soon, which kinda making the story beat a bit wonky). Also, I wish these chapters had more detail, but I think focusing too much on that will just make the narrative slow down too much. Maybe one day.

    I mean, hell, I kinda want to revise the first three chapters for the fourth time. But... like I said, if I keep pulling this stunt, I'm never gonna finish 😂

    Without giving way too much, I think my writing style (and perhaps tone) will at least slightly shift from the earlier chapters. Or maybe it won't. I don't know. In the end, I'm going to proceed in a way that makes sense to myself...

    Thanks for reading!

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    Chapter:21

    Mar 26, 2025

    To:Orionless

    No no, I'm probably not dipping, I guess I was just tired yesterday. The last time I dipped from writing, I came back after like one day lmao (thanks Doremine)

    Uhhhhhh I'll probably finish the story. At this point, I'm quite certain how the story will progress. In my head... it's pretty much done, but I'm sure it'll become more advanced if I keep pressing on and I have more things to connect.

    I think my responsibility as a writer is to connect everything, to really create a "retelling" of what actually happens in this story. Kinda like... piecing together a story from bits of interviews, if that makes sense. Schindler's Ark (the book) was written like that, you know, from countless interviews and other pieces of information that the author used to create a retelling of Oskar Schindler's life.

    I see this story in a similar way, where it's my responsibility to explain what "really" happened in the story. I feel like a detective of my own head, almost, so I find it pretty fun.

    ... If you couldn't tell, I really like Schindler's List, haha. I genuinely find it impossible for any story medium to top the movie. My stories are just a way for me to express my thoughts and conflicts, while Schindler's List is genuinely just... the greatest piece of humanity I've seen portrayed on screen?

    And my guy, don't worry, I would actually let you know if I dipped 100%, I wouldn't just go like "uhhh I feel like quitting". Maybe one day, but not today. And I enjoy when we exchange comments, so I don't really have an issue with it for now. We're kinda like pen pals, I guess. Sorry for the scare haha

    I'll just have to find a way to make time for me to both improve my writing and improve my mathematical/scientific knowledge, I suppose.

    And you're probably right, the judges probably won't be so picky on their view of only having "strictly original content", but... I'll leave that decision to the future me.

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    Chapter:8



    Mar 25, 2025

    To:Orionless

    Thanks, man. Really
    But honestly, your insight is appreciated--I actually did consider it a massive risk to add these chapters in because it was a curveball of expectations... and I think I need to make it more clearer in the writing that Abigail is making a conscious choice to leave this place and abandon all the "stories" that exist in Sanctivus.

    It was a valid concern for me that it could look like I was hyping up something only for me to just stop talking about it all together. I miiiiiight need to readjust this chapter.

    I mean, think about it... if you didn't have foresight into how the later chapters turned out, you could definitely think that the story was heading in a direction that was extreme and explosive... It really makes sense that you thought that way, man. I think I might have accidentally misdirected you lmao

    Aaaand also, I might need to adjust the usage of Sanctivus with a different idea/name because it's from my backlogs... I don't really want to get marked down for using an idea from one of my scrapped novels (it saw a brief moment of existence on this site before I took it down months ago). Which actually SUCKS but.... once again, I am willing to compromise that. I'll just have to... rebrand....

    Massive sigh. Maybe I'll end up making an alternate cut of the novel once the contest is over. Honestly, even after the contest is over and the results are out, I wouldn't mind continuing to reinforce the story. Because the story's core is about human nature and the choice to continue fighting... which is something that can always be expanded on (and maybe Cillian's story could somehow work itself in, one day...)

    Buuuuut I'm not exactly planning on being a writer the rest of my life... I'm not a humanities major.

    This novel has a value to me because it enhances my own perspectives of death, morality, etc.... but uh... I honestly don't think I would want to write another novel. I really doubt there's another concept in the world that is so important to me that I'd write another 25k+ story on it (though if I was mentally losing my mind I might write something about Sanctivus or Cillian, talking about how to strive for righteousness when you're mentally unwell. That was the main objective of both of the entities).

    And honestly, I don't really feel an extreme need to continue digging into this story, because I'm satisfied with my own conclusions that I've found during the process of thinking about this novel... but... I guess I should finish.....?

    .... Writing should be a hobby, but I feel like... I haven't taken time to really prepare for my future while taking a break from my university. Haha. I've spent a lot of time thinking about this stuff instead of, you know, preparing myself for my re-entry into academia. I don't regret spending my time writing--it's just that I wonder how much is really left to think about HAHA I feel like I'm ready to tackle academics again instead of spending time writing and writing and writing

    Either way, I'm really thankful for your encouragements all the time. Please don't think your ideas were pointing in the wrong direction of my novel--it really does make sense to me that you thought that way. And that's what predictions are--you had no idea where I was actually gonna take the novel haha

    ... And, admittedly, it always throws me off when you consider Abigail turning in a certain direction HAHA she's technically the only one who is really proactive about saving the world in the story so it does make me laugh sometimes

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    Chapter:8

    Mar 25, 2025

    To:Orionless

    So admittedly, when I first read this I laughed out loud because of how different my vision of the later chapters was compared to your prediction lmao

    Alan Moore once said to not be too honest with your readers but I don't think it would hurt too much to explain the role of the additional details in these chapters are. And plus, you're a writer--so from fellow writer to writer, I think it might be interesting to share my thoughts.

    First, it's to paint a different world unlike the one that Atlas and Julian will find themselves active in--for the most part, they're just in a quiet city where people are kinda just silently doing their own things as the end approaches. I believed that this limited the novel's perspective on ideals and morals--because these guys just had it too good. I believed that this would make the dilemmas featured in this novel slightly naive, because the spotlight was mainly on people who lived in a slightly more comfortable modern society.

    Sanctivus (and Abigail's experiences in it) was added to paint that "other world" that people like Julian could not even fathom, where man-made devils such as Cillian ran around, where it was almost hopeless for children like Jack to live to be righteous. This was a way to acknowledge that there are parts of the world where living is hellish and people are just trying to survive day by day... a world where even if the world is prevented from doom, the people in it won't necessarily find "salvation." It's a world that is chaotic, loud, and messy, compared to the quiet and introspective world that we will spend the rest of the story in.

    For the most part, it was designed to have a story of its own that the readers WON'T be able to read to completion because Abigail Kovacs, one of the main characters, chooses to LEAVE Sanctivus for the sake of the whole world... inadvertently forsaking those stories to progress on their own, without the attention of her and the readers themselves. But I will say that Cillian's story will resolve eventually (though not much attention will be given to it--that's the point--we're missing his POV because we're too busy focusing on Atlas and Victor. And if you found Cillian's story as interesting, imagine all the stories we are missing from this same universe as the sky is collapsing. That is the point--not everyone will get to have a say in "saving the world" and not everyone wants to have a say in "saving the world").

    Second, it's to really give Abigail a distinct philosophy and perspective on life that will come in handy when morals and ideals clash/intertwine later in the novel--because her perspective, knowledge, and understanding (of those who have no voice in the world) are something that the other characters SEVERELY lack. So I'd say her unique "worldview" and "lifestyle" will be critical when Atlas/Victor considers what to do with their power henceforward (this is still a mystery to the reader, I guess lol).

    Finally, it's to set apart Victor's "team" from Atlas's "team"--one is fantastical and extreme, while the other is rather grounded and relaxed.

    Whether or not she flips to a different side is, uh, I guess still a mystery, but I honestly.... don't really expect that. Sure, she might become DARKER... but to flip sides entirely... hm... how much of a simp for Victor would she have to be for that to happen 💀 still, I guess it's possible, but I think I'd have to be in a horrible, horrible mood for that to happen (or if my ideals switch up very quickly somehow in the next few weeks). I'm avoiding romance like a fiend so hahahahahaha I really doubt Abigail would just jump on the Victor bandwagon

    And I'm mentioning all this because I don't really think that I'm giving away too much by saying all this, because really, these few chapters... are kinda... not the point of the story. It's an important acknowledgement of the "other side of the world." I do think these chapters may accidentally prepare the reader for a more exciting and epic story, but... like I said, the point was to make sure the reader knew that this isn't entirely a "quiet and peaceful world" that we will spend our time on for the rest of the chapters. Wars and war crimes exist... so when considering if the world is worth fighting for, all the voiceless victims should be accounted for.

    Still, yes, Cillian is a nice addition to the story. If I planned on continuing writing after this novel, I was going to make a separate story of Cillian as the protagonist (who is, really, one of the most messed up characters I thought of), but... well, I thought it would be good to use him as a way for me to explain how screwed up the world can be.

    And Sanctivus is also from my backlog... which would have been 18+ because of how bat#### crazy it was, from the protagonist to the antagonists... Absolute insanity. So I thought, "yeah, this is a good example of how insane the world could be."

    But yeah, uh, I'm glad you found it exciting.

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    Mar 20, 2025

    To:Orionless

    Yeah, man. That's what I thought too: "it's the recommended amount, so I could probably just go past that length."
    But then I reread Mr. Mario's comment today, got suspicious, then checked the contest page again, and it read this:

    "Skipping on complying with any of the details in the eligibility checklist and **judging criteria** will automatically disqualify your novel from the contest."

    And one of the judging criteria is that the word count per chapter is roughly 1,000 to 1,500 words, so... oof.

    I think going over or below once in a while is fine, but since I've CONSISTENTLY went over 2000+, I think I'd end up on their list of getting instantly DQ'd lmao

    And yes, I do believe that it's really based on the judges' whims--I mean, if I somehow wrote "Schindler's List 2.0" or "Oldboy 3.0" something, I think I might be able to get away with the word requirements, but like... I don't think I will LOL

    And Jesus, imagine getting DQ'd for writing too much in these chapters 😭 I can't risk that. That'd be a horrible way to lose everything...

    ... I'll just see this as a way of the universe telling me to go back and check what I've written, I guess. And I'm not foolish enough to think that I can't use this opportunity to improve what I've written. I'm probably gonna try to enhance the story somehow. Still, I want to get to the second phase before April...

    Yup, yup, here we go again...

    Still, god, I JUST told myself yesterday that I'm finally back on schedule LMAOOO I can't believe this is happening

    Still, when in Rome, do as the Romans do, right? I should have been more careful. It's not really their fault haha it's mine. Instead of stressing about it now, I should have stressed about it in the beginning

    This must be what a time traveler feels like 🫠 going back over and over again until getting things right. Oh well. If that's what it will take...

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    Chapter:20

    Mar 20, 2025

    To:Orionless

    I actually watched The Pianist. I didn't read it. Same for Schindler's List (but the book did just arrive in the mail, so hopefully I can read it soon!!!).

    Uh... well, I wouldn't say I'm Victor Truman, haha. It sounds kinda awkward. I try to distance myself from my characters as much as possible... but, well, I think because my stories are often a way to express feelings from things I've experienced, my own life slightly ends up spilling over to my story. So really, it's not that he's modeled after me--it's more like the entire story itself is a way to express my own experiences, feelings, and answers. I'd say that the base mentalities of many of these characters have are ones that I've had in my past... and this story is a way to critique and compare those mentalities, I think.

    Oh, tragic news (or comedic news, I guess): I realized a few hours ago that I'm probably going to be disqualified because of the current length of the chapters (literally 9/10 of them are 1500+ words, and 3.3 is the longest at 2735 words), so, uh, you might end up seeing a lot of notifications this week, because I'll be splitting up my chapters and probably adding a few things so the chapters transition smoothly. I guess I'll have to do this before moving on to the fourth part of the story.

    It's funny because this finally clicked in my head while I was reading your conversation with Mr. Mario in ATN chapter 1, so... thank God for that, I guess? I'm lowkey stressing right now because I really like the way I formatted these chapters, but I'm not stubborn enough to leave in my 2000+ word chapters and get disqualified for that. I really, really don't like the word cap for the chapters, but... well, when in Rome, right? Just gotta listen to "Baka Mitai", let my frustrations all out, and then just do what I have to, haha.

    I think the positive that can come out of this situation is that I can probably go back and adjust some things, since now I have more foresight to the story than before, but the negative is that a lot of these segments are NOT meant to be pulled apart. So...

    Either way, the differences will be so subtle that it probably won't matter. Just think that what you've read so far is the "director's cut", and what you'll see later is the "theatrical cut". Or if the story improves, maybe it'll end up becoming the "final cut".

    Wow, this is really starting to sound like the Ridley Scott's Blade Runner movie situation lmao

    Well well well. We'll see. Sorry for the upcoming mess I'll create. Most likely, I will do it all at once, but... well, damn, this sucks. I actually hate my situation right now, but it's kinda my fault for not realizing this sooner.

    For the sake of the competition, I will recut my beloved chapters 🫠 I hope you never, ever make the mistakes I've made this week lmfaooooooo

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    Chapter:20


    Mar 19, 2025

    To:Orionless

    First, thank you for reading so far. Even if it wasn't perfectly tailored for your liking, these three chapters are my favorite so far, and I would have never been able to bring them onto existence without your first few comments you left me on those prototype chapters of the story.

    Not gonna lie, I did not realize that the sister in the hospital thing was a trope until you said it. But it makes sense, and well, I assumed that people use it just for the sake of traumatizing their characters, but I thought I did it for a good reason. Because the thing is, she's still alive and she's out of the hospital--he just hasn't seen her ever since. Maybe I need to make that more clear. And I'm not exactly done with her character, either--going a little behind the scenes, I mentioned before that I managed to squeeze some things into the story: "Alice" is one of these "things" (characters, to be specific) that were squeezed into the story.

    Without Alice, I originally planned for Abigail and Victor to face the same traumatic event: they would both see the death of Abigail's family, and react in their individual ways. Victor, who doesn't feel the full impact of a family's death, cowers from it, while Abigail, who feels the full impact of her family's death, manages to hang on because of the memory of "that day." But I think that would be even worse of a "trope."

    I really wanted to use Alice's character, because people like her make me feel so sad--if you've seen or read "The Pianist," you know that even if all someone does is bring joy and hope to the world, the world's problems will not ignore them. I. would almost say the same for writers--all they want to do is write, yet they usually can't, because the world has very real issues that affect them unless they do something about it (just look at what happened to Victor). And I would say that her individual journey is still unfinished, by the way. Hehe.

    All in all, I'm managing to squeeze in most concepts and topics that fly around my head (because the prompt of the contest nicely ties in with the ideas of death, suffering, and morality), but there are a few characters that I wish was a part of the story but just couldn't make it in. Thankfully, Alice made it into the story. Just, you know, with a lot of damage along the way. A LOT of damage.

    And, hm... I would say that Victor is a bit of a dilemma for me, because he himself responds greatly to his own emotions--and because his fear of death became so strong since the incident, he was always running away from it. So even if his feelings of a better world were once genuine, they've mostly been overridden by the more powerful impulse of fear.

    This comes from a "real experience," actually. I wanted to be a soldier a while ago, thinking like "hey, if I die, I die, who cares? At least I'll be able to be courageous." Then I saw footage of a soldier (in a movie) who got shot in the face and survived, who also had their mouth and face all screwed up. Then I was like, "yeah, uh... I can't. That's horrifying." So in that sense, I wonder if Victor was just naive from the beginning, compared to Abigail who knew the risks and decided to stick to it anyway.

    But even that scene on the swings was based off real experiences, so... haha, it's funny how both events really did happen to the "same person."

    As always, thanks for reading! And you can let me know if you have any issues or concerns. Even if I can't act on your criticisms, suggestions, or comments immediately, I love hearing your thoughts, because at the very least, your thoughts force me to explain things to myself (which is what happened with Abigail).

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