Jul 21, 2022
To:Katsuhito
Yeah, the (or rather my) honesty might be a bit hard to swallow, but I'd rather receive harsh or very fussy feedback than to miss a part that had slipped my attention. And since I can't expect something I don't deliver myself, I'll gladly deliver ๐
Yeah, I could tell the feeling was eating away at her, but only for certain specific moments like this one, where Hana shows Yukio the cold shoulder (probably without wanting to). I mean you might talk yourself into living in the moment to some degree, but that does not change the facts.
My best friend in middle school moved away about two years after we first met. He also did not have the courage to tell me that he would move, because he did not know how to tell me. I heard it through a few classmates and I sure as well felt a bit let down by him. But he did not act like we were going to be best buds forever until someday the realization would hit me like a train. He did not play with my feelings, you know.
Hana however acts like this and yes, she feels guilty for it at the same time. I can understand why she did not tell Yukio that she will move and that she did not tell him about the past events!
But she became his girlfriend while knowing that she would break up with him after a short time! You can enjoy the present as much as you want, but either keep keep your hands away from him, fell really miserable and try to actively avoid him while failing or put the things to the table and let him decide on his own. Everything apart from that would be insulting towards Yukio.
I'm sure you will relativize it by: "I could not resist against my feelings", "I've felt so bad while feeling so happy with you" and "Sorry, sorry, sorry!"
But this would be an inner fight that does not just show in some lines Hana drops during a few talks. Her actions would differ. One day she would try to avoid Yukio and behave cold and repellent. On others she would act like nothing has changed and then suddenly be lost in thought, behave atypical for her cheerful self and so much else. This is not a small abuse of confidence, this is a really big thing and such an inner fight should be on her mind whenever Yukio enters her line of sight.
But that is just my opinion ๐
I made similar mistakes on previous stories and maybe I am very sensitive for that. Afterall it is your decision if you think that makes sense. ๐
